I am 56, 5'4", and weighed 89 a month ago. My Dr. is constantly on me and wants me to drink Ensure. I have MS and my husband has emphysema, we only draw disability and are poor, can't afford any good food or the Ensure. Nothing sounds good to eat, I usually only eat supper and could do without that if needed. My kids also ride me alot and I know it's rooted in love but now I am starting to be concerned, money is so tight there's stress all the time and I know from previous anorexia problems that, for me at least, its all about control. Everything in my life seems to be spinning out of control, not eating helps me control SOMETHING, but I understand that is SICK thinking. I know not eating is my own, private little 'game', like I'm getting away with being rebellious, what am I, 16??? I have to get some help. My Dr. has threatened to hospitalize me and feed me via a drip if I don't gain weight. I am embarrased and guilty over this, I am picking my eating disorder over my kids and grandkids! I will enter the hospital if that is what I need to do. Opinions please?