Will it hurt to puke just once ???

[Bran_Bran]

I feel discustingly fat  after having a small peace of pie and ice cream with my family. And I can't get it off my mind! How bad can it be of I puke once??? It can't be that bad as long as I don't make a habbit of it right???And I promis my self to cut back o. Sweets as much as possible The only reason I haven't puked already is because it's my dream to sing and that would ruin my dream! But one time shouldent hurt should it???

[Bran_Bran]

And yes I know it's related cuz after almost a year of intensly baiting my persanality I started hating my body to!

[Bran_Bran]

And yes I know it's related cuz after almost a year of intensly baiting my persanality I started hating my body to!

[Bran_Bran]

If I ask her to ask someone then my Mum will know and I don't want to her so right now I am talking to my pastor another pastor
who does bible studies at my school on Tuesdays and my youth pastor so I'm hoping that's enouph???

[Zoelula]

Yes, it does. And the hating yourself is related, it's all related and you need to get professional help. Talk to the youth pastor and ask her to get you help.

[Bran_Bran]

When I see my youth pastor next I'm going to show her my updated journal and hofuly she pays attention to the diet section. Last time she was mote conserned about me hating myself and wanting to kill my self so I don't know hopfuly she notises the diet section this time. Because since Thursday when I weight my self my weight is all I can think about. And when I'm not exersising I feel discusting. But still I'm not sure if I have a eating dissorder or not because I have not talked to a doctor. Though I relize it sounds like I do

[Zoelula]

There is always "just this once". You are suffering from an illness and purging just keeps the illness going. You need help and support to get treated for the illness which is not fat but how you think and feel.