I'm stuck on the idea at the moment. I thought it would help me attain a degree of structure and guidance but I felt I also needed to get mum on board (and she isn't).
I find her attitude invalidating and unsupportive.
Cost is a big negative for me, but then, can I afford not too?
I have $40 a week to spend on groceries, petrol, medication if I need it, clothes, etc. It would be nice to put some of that money aside for a mountain bike or a pair of running shoes. Big dilemma. I think I would save more if I didn't spend so much on food.
Do I, don't I?
I think you would suggest that I am again looking to someone else for that magic cure. Am I? I feel it would be for boundaries regarding food and for personal growth.
Can I get support for my issues from my T? I don't know. I discussed weight with him on Thursday. He said everyone has a tipping point (which I've probably reached). He relates it back to core beliefs which go over my head. He tested the idea of going for a 15 minute walk three times a week with it just being a goal, nothing more/ nothing less.
I've been for two 40 minute walks in the past two days so perhaps it's worked.
I'm OK when I'm directed but then I always view myself as a follower and not a leader.
I feel more motivated to make changes at the moment.
Our neighbor died recently and while I perceived him to have everything he now has nothing. I guess that means I have opportunities and should make the most of them.
I was also thinking about everything I had inherited from my parents. I expect there must be some positive qualities there so I should utilize my strengths to help me make positive incremental changes.
I am thinking about maybe trusting myself and my ability to work through this issue.
I'm going to start by exercising (going for some runs) and keeping a food diary. If after one week I don't feel like I'm making much progress I can re-evaluate then.
I am going to make this work. One day I am going to post and say Dr Gould I have reached and maintained my goal weight, I am exercising consistently and are attaining my fitness goals, I feel fantastic, I look great, I'm relating well and my anxiety has dissipated. This will happen!!
J
If the weight watchers meetings are conducted by a good group leader,that would be a very good way to get help and support from like minded people going through the same struggle.....they have the right philosophy from my point of view.