Heather....Im so sorry. I suffered so much of my life with eating disorders. I also suffered from Anorexia and Bulimia. Im sure you know this but E.D.'s are all about emotions and covering up our feelings. The bulimia gives you a false sence of relief when you purge and not eating gives you a feeling of control. Please don't give up on finding the right Dr. for treatment. It can be so discouraging but keep looking until you find help. You will always have your eating disorder but IT CAN become managable.
My best and good luck!
Dana
Heather, the only thing you can do is find the right treatment..you are motivated, so look hard for the right doctor to treat you....and learn all you can about the emotions of eating.