blood in my spit

[help000]

hello,

i am 28 years old i have been bulimic for 10 years. i have 3 children and am very worried about myself. i am trying to get pregnant. i have been vomiting after my pregnancies and while i'm getting pregnant. please help me?? i'm scared and confused..i vomited just now and have bright red blood after i spit. i cannot tell anyone or go to a doctor. please tell me what to do..please don't say go to a doctor. cause i really can't
some advice any...i will try to follow it. i really want to be normal.

[JD3P]

If you are trying to get pregnant vomitting will not help you. And if you meant you do it while you are pregnant you are most likely hurting your child, not just yourself. Since you do not want to go to the doctor the best advice I can give you is to stop. That's the only way you won't have blood come up anymore. You need to allow your throat to heal. If you are feeling pain in your chest or your abdomen it could be something other than your esophagus and you're going to have to suck it up and tell your doctor the truth. You may have shame but the thing is that they cannot tell anyone what you are doing...they can only try to help you, that is if you let them. If you continue to purge your throat or whatever is damaged cannot heal, and that is the reality. I'm sorry that you have to go through, and I hope you can find some way to take my advice. I know it's not easy....and unfortunately it takes the person themselves to find their own reason for stopping. Try to find yours...

[Rach878]

hello, i am a 19 year old who has struggled with bulimia for 7 years. The blood in your spit and vomit is most likely a sign of damamge to your esophogus. If you keep spiting up blood there could be some very serious complication from the stomach acid, and it's probably buring a hole in your throat.
I know your scared. your scared to tell anyone, of what your husband will say, what your kids will think. I know that fear. I'm not married and i don't have kids, but i was terrifiedof my mom knowing. but honestly they need to know, or at least your Dr. needs to know.
there is so much i've missed out on in my life for my eating disorder. This summer i spent in treatment, so that i could recover and go on a school feild trip to Europe in April. Unfortunatley i've relapsed, and am told if i don't start getting back on the right track i may not be allowed to go to Europe. This is just an example of what eating disorders take away from you.
If you don't want to tell for yourself, tell for your kids. They're very intuitive. Even if you think they don't know they will, and a child with an eating disordered parent is 2x more likely to form an eating disorder themselves, from picking up on habbits. You don't want taht for your children. Please at least tell your doctor.

[Zoelula]

You ask for help and then you reject what help might be offered. If you are concerned about yourself and about your three children who need their mother then you will go to a doctor. You know that is what you need to do. Why are you hesitant? You don't want anyone to know? Your problem won't go away if you keep it secret, if anything it will get worse. This is a disease of secrets. If, on the other hand you get help and learn how to manage your illness THEN you can live a normal life. Oh, and if you want to know how I know this? I had an eating disorder for decades and now have been in recovery for 15 years. Do get help.