Hi, basicly my life is quite complicated. I have a mild disability and I think I suffer from slight depression because I dont do a lot on my days off college. I lack motivation to do work etc and will just watch tv and go on fb. I have no job and sometimes feel useless. I hate my legs so wont show them to anyone but know I think I will have to face that fear and go to the doctor.
So when I had a seizure during my sleep I never did anything about it. I was scared, I dont like talking to people and I hate the idea of hospitals cos i hate myself so dont like the idea of having someone prod me.
I had my first one over a year ago in my sleep and i was aware I was moving uncontrollably. I thought it was an earth quake at first and could see flashing lights/patterns in my mind. I thought at first that it could be because of excess computer playing games (World of warcraft).
I carried on learning to drive and passed my driving test but because of my confidence issues I rarely drive alone. and I was worried because I felt my independance would be taken away from me. I couldnt understand buses at the time.
Probably I year or less later I had another one, probably due to extreme tiredness from doing work experience all day.
Now probably about 5 or months later I am having problems with my eyes, They roll and twitch (which could just be stress). I am going to tell the doctor but I'm worried about the fact I have been driving whist Ive had 2 seizures in my sleep. Will they do anything about it? I know you can loose your driving licence but I am scared I will have to pay a fine or worse.
I do not know the cause of these siezures, it could be damage caused by me falling off a horse but i do not know the exact time of either the fall or the siezure. I could have just developed it because of my cerebral palsy. I am worried about what my parents will think, because I will have to explain all my problems they are so ignorant about :S