Hi. I'm new here and am not sure how effective it will be to post but I am getting frustrated and have had many different opinions and consults in regards to my condition. Since I was a child, I have had a lot of unexplained experiences, night terrors, hallucinations visual and auditory, spontaneous vomiting, daydreaming, sleep paralysis like symptoms, traveling muscle cramps, unexplained numbness in hands and feet and around mouth, terrible insomnia, and just feeling "odd" or "different" than my peers. I should note that these symptoms or spells usually don't last longer than a minute or two, but my recollection of the events are usually after the fact and have been reported to me by someone else. I have had a number of emotional problems as well. In fact, it was believed until recently when I suffered from my first grand mal while awake that was witnessed that this was all purely psychiatric in nature. I have been through a gazillion treatments for bipolar, depression, schizotype disorders, etc to no avail. In fact, the psychiatric treatments often made my passing out spells, vomiting, body temp changes, sleep issues more prevalant and worsened my overall condition. It wasn't until recently like I said that I was diagnosed with a seizure disorder and I am wondering what the connection is. I am 30 years old now and have had these problems for my entire life. It has been hard to get the docs to take me seriously because my history is disjointed at best as I have terrible issues with my memory and was often alone growing up so basically it is my word and my history with only recent input by my current husband and exhusband etc, after the fact. I can say that these spell activities were worse as a child, around age 12 or so, during my pregnancy at 18, and during birth control pill changes, high stress, lack of sleep, and of course, recently. I have been on 1500 mg of Keppra in the a.m. and p.m. and now have just been prescribed Zonagran with a referall to a university hospital for further testing. I have also had testing EEGs, MRI, CAT scans etc that were negative as far as I know. I was wondering if my diagnosis is getting convoluded by my psychiatric symptoms and also if it is possible to have seizure activity so deep in the brain that it is not detectable by conventional EEGs. I have never had a "baseline" with my health issues and I am only 30 years old and desperate to live a "normal" if not relatively normal life. I still have a lot of "activity" at night with lip smacking, waking with muscle cramps, hands in curled tense position, unexplained bruises and falling, and that is why the additional medication was prescribed as well. I lost my job recently due to cognitive changes, used to be an editor and now cannot even read a book well when I used to zoom through most novels in an afternoon. I used to be above average intelligence with deficits in math but now I feel as if I am getting dumber with spelling, grammar errors I never used to make, inability to remember names, etc. I know this entry is getting a bit long and of course a little disjointed again and I apologize. I would really appreciate any input and advice,a direction even,so I can get the proper treatment I need. I have been told numerous times what a "fascinating case" I was but no one seems to want to help me sort through all of it. I don't want to be fascinating any more, I just want to live my life. Thanks in advance. Any input is appreciated.