Just curious as to what your list of others included? And your reactions? I tried several ten plus years ago and had horrible reactions to them as well I took dylanton, tegratol, neurotton. (sorry I know I spelled them all wrong) but oh well.. I take depakote now and have for a long time now.. But due to the side effects of that like the weight control issuess, liver, and birth defects it can cause I want to go off but nervous as I have not had a seizure in more then a decade now and hesitant to chance it, just don't like the side effects of depakote!!!!
Dilantin was toxic to me in even small doses...it made me so sick. That was the first medication I ever tried and it didn't really help so my nuerologist kept increasing my dose despite what I was telling him. Then he put me on Tegretol which caused me to have major balance issues and night paralysis, every night, several times a night...very disturbing. It wasn't effective enough, so I was given Depakote, which wasn't as bad, but not effective enough, so my knucklehead doctor added Tegretol. Duh...needless to say, he was fired and I went elsewhere. I went to a comprehensive epilepsy center and they found a medication that works really well for me and I have minimal side-effects. I've been on Topamax for 7 years and it's more effective than any other medication or combination or medications I've been on.
I know it's really a drag and it truly *****. I take a lot of medication...I have epilepsy, schizophrenia/depression and allergies/asthma. All of which require daily medication...all of which have side-effects I have to deal with on a daily basis. I'd just love it if I didn't have to swallow and inhale a ton of medication just to have a decent quality of life. But it's not like that for me, so I do the best with what's available to me and I'm greatful for what I have.
In the end it's really a balancing act between the side-effects of the medications and the overall quality of life you'd have if you were NOT taking the medications. Which is worse? That's how I think about it because I need some sort of perspective on it.
If the benefits truly don't outweigh the side-effects of the medications, then you really need to have a heart-to-heart with your doctor. I'm not sure how understanding they'll be because they'll probably insist on the medical necessity of taking the medication. Sometimes doctors forget about the quality of life issue and just address the disease itself. No doubt that's important, but quality of life is important, too. I think they need to consider that when talking to patients about treatment options. You and your doctor need to be on the same sheet of music.
I'm not sure if that really answers your question, but I hope something that I said helps you in some way.
Thanks for the feedback. I appreciate it. I have been on depakote, topamax, lamotrigine, zonegran, gabepentin, lamictal, and keppra. Most of them make me so dopey and forgetful that working is definately a challenge. But...no work...no insurance...no medical care. What a nasty circle. I am allergic to the zonegran, blisters in my mouth etc. The others caused severe leg pain, eye pain, anorexia, hairloss, and I suppose i could go on. But you get the picture. Hmmm, might have to find an epilepsy center, and at least have that quality of life discussion with current doc. Last two conversations have been with his physicians assistant, and she is useless to talk to.