Failed IUI # 1, I guess....

[dipz]

I had my first IUI with 5 days of clomid and 5 days of injectibles...response was very good, both ovaries showed 3-4 big follies....everything was so fine, doc even gave 2 back to back IUI's to cover all chances....My TWW was also good with the occassional twinges and cramps, and pimples on my face, bloatedness etc etc...all this time I thought wow! this time i will get pregnant....and today 16DPO, i tested as per my doc's advice its a BIG FAT NEGATIVE.....I feel so wasted and unwanted right now....why is it happeneing? good follicles, DH's sperms were also super good, ovulation was monitored, sperms were deposited in the uterus bypassing the cervix, and still why cant my DH's sperms find my eggs?? I know it sounds funny when i write like this...but iam so sad, and i feel bad to call my doc and tell her that its a negative...after my IUI she told me most probably it will twins, triplets etc, and all the nurses said when you come after 15 days you have to give  a party to all of us....all were very confident...now i dont feel like showing my face in the hospital.....

I know nobody can help me right now, but just wanted to share whats happening with me right now, after 2 days i know i will be alright and will plan abt the next cycle...baby dust in chunks to all of you and me too....GOD are you listening??????

[wishing4#2]

Im really sorry! I just had IUI #3 today, and I know how you feel. With my first one everything looked good and my progesterone was super high and they were so sure that i was pregnant, and I wasn't!! And then the second one looked even better, but my progesterone was low and once again wasn't pg. So now i am on to #3, I am hoping so much that it works!!! I agree it seems like if they put the sperm right where the egg is it should work!!! But if you haven't started AF yet, maybe there is still a chance that yours did work, are they going to do a blood test? If not lots of baby dust for next cycle.

[dipz]

AF started an hour ago...I was on progestrone supplements and i stopped it yesterday night, so i thought it will take 3 days for af to crashland...but i guess it didnt waste its and my time....now atleast i will plan abt the next cycle, i will skip IUI this cycle as i will be travelling during my fertile time...and my body (even though now iam  angry with it) needs rest also in case ther is any leftover cyst present....

Are you in your TWW??? i sometimes feel the HPT that i buy will never show two lines!!! I know they do work for others, but with me always that damn single line...

[babyprayers]

I have had 4 failed IUI... I know it seems so unfair.. I am trying something new. (thanks to the book the secret if anyone has read it) basically the book says you form your own future etc.. basically it says to imagine your self pregnant. etc... I know I know it seems like a far shot, but at 39 years old I am willing to try anything.. soooo.... right now I am seeing myself pregnant by mothers day.. It can hurt to imagine myself that way, and it may just work. I have a few questions for you though, do you smoke, drink caffeine, there is studies done that smoking can damage eggs and cause infertility.

[dipz]

No smoking, drinks etc... But i have PCOS, so my eggs are bound to be of bad quality...but iam on metformin 3 times a day for the last 8 months to regulate my insulin amount and to create quality eggs, but i dont think still the quality has changed...otherwise this wudnt have happened....when i think of my wasted eggs i feel bad...

Also my TSH was 10 last month...so i know that also affects the egg quality...iam on medication for that too...only i know how many pills i swallow each day!!

I just talked to my doc, she said to take a break for one month ...I also need it badly....but i know even when iam on a break, i will be counting first my ovulation day, then will start feeling all symptoms and finally will think that iam pregnant and then will see that dreaded one line on my HPT!!!

I think I shudnt complaint when you all have completed 3rd and 4th IUI...iam just a beginner in this IUI field....I was crying my heart out 3 hours since i got my BFN, now iam back to my normal stage... : )

[babyprayers]

I cried badly after the first 2 as well.. I know it hurts awful... just keep the faith and keep trying.. and be POSITIVE..

[wishing4#2]

yeah I am now in the TWW. I am trying to be really positive this month and hope it works. The RE said that i was "very fertile" during the IUI cause there was a ton of cm (sorry tmi!) . . He hasn't said that with the first two. So i am hopeful. I know i hate the one line tests!! When I had my HCG shot I did an hpt just cause i knew it would be positive, even though its not real, kind of fun to see what two lines look like. Im crazy I know. :) Good luck with this next cycle.