I am having a Miscarriage

[butterflybabies]

Hi Ladies.
I am having a miscarriage. I started having cramps this morning and started bleeding. I talked to my RE's office a little while ago and my beta stayed the same since Monday..didnt go up or down.. My progestrone dropped from 9 to 3.8..
The RE believes that I am having an in-uterun miscarriage...great I finally have a pregnancy that is in my uterus and the baby doesnt make it..WTF! (we dont know for sure if the baby is in my uterus but my symptoms suggest it)...and if the baby was in my tube then it should just get reabsorbed into my system..
So Now I will be getting my beta checked to weekly to make sure my number drops..
I am sooo sad to lose another baby!
The only positive I am holding onto right now is the fact that I know the baby can make it to my uterus and i wont be needing surgery or the methotroxate shot to remove an ectopic which means we can try again as soon as we want..with surgery and the shot we wouldve had to wait a few months...
Even though I know I can get pregnant and it can make its way down to my uterus it doesnt take the pain away of losing this baby and my other baby! I am just so sad right now! I cant help but say why? I will never know why!
My DH said to me we will see them in heaven someday..I am just sad that I will never get to meet these babies here and hold them in my arms..
I have so much love to give and no baby to give it to!
Thanks for all your prayers and hopefully we can try again soon and the 3rd time will be the charm!
Love,
Lily

[snooglebeans]

Lily- I am so sorry for what you're going through.  Sending you a big hug...

[Marietta2000]

Oh Lily!!

I only just read this now.  I knew you were worried about the numbers, but I was praying so hard for you!!  There's nothing I can say to make you feel better about your babies - but what your DH said is right, I'm sure, you will meet them in heaven.  Life really just isn't fair sometimes, and like you say, you have so much love to give!!!  Both of you so deserve to be a mummy and daddy, so I'm keeping you in my prayers that this will happen to you!!  I couldn't cope with what you're going through, you are so strong!  So please keep that strength, and do all you can to get the baby that is so wanting to come to you.  Please take care, and keep your faith!!!

Love, Marietta XOX

[ita17]

I had 3 different experiences w/my mc's ;(  irst one @ 7 weeks, bb had a HB & died, I bled a day not so bad, then the next day a bit more.......DR gave me some pill to take (to help abort) &vicadin & it was nothing, I don't think I got a single cramp. it was all done in like 4 days, & felt like a normal period w/a few bigger clots. My next cycle was painful though.
#2nd mc was a blighted ovem, started bleeding again @ 7 weeks (had an US a few days before, thats how I knew it was a BO) & I started spotting/bleeding the I passed the sac pretty big & went to the ER, I was almost all cleaned out, no pain.  THEN the next day...WHOA............tons of cramps, more bleeding, went to the Dr the following day, I thought there wa something wrong, but nope.  It was all gone, but I had HORRIBLE pain for 3-4 days.  I lost like 6 pounds, was SOOOOOOO sick ;(  Very strange, cuz it was very different than my 1st, & my 1st had a peanut inside it.
After about a week, I felt a lot better.
3rd, was a missed mc @ 11 weeks, no bleeding/cramping got a DnC bled very little, 2nd day a little period like cramping is all.
The good news for you, I bet since you are mc early on, I bet you will O in 2 weeks ;)
Hang in there, xxx's

[Heather5]

With my natural miscarriage, it also started with spotting. Then the next day, I started cramping too. The cramps gradually got worse during the day and afternoon, and then right before midnight, I passed the tissue. After that, I had one more episode in the middle of the night with bad cramps and a little more tissue...and then it was all over. I know it varies a lot from person to person, but that's how I remember it. I was 6.5 weeks at the time.

Take care of yourself, OK?

HUGS!

[scienceteacher79]

All I really remember (its been two years and I have tried not to remember anthing!) is light bleeding, finding out it was a m/c, and then heavier bleeding and cramps, cramps, cramps, blood clots (tissue) and then light bleeding. Once you pass all of the tissue you will feel a lot better (physically). The bleeding stopped pretty fast (but remember I still had stuff in there, so it may not be entirely normal to stop bleeding so quickly). Once it got started, I think it was a day of BAD cramping and then a day or two of lighter cramping. When my HCG got to 4 I ended up ovulating( i think I did anyway). good luck sweetie - let us know of anything we can do. Remember to call the doc if you have ANY questions at all. Don't play around at all. Call them - you pay them enough, use them!! :) Hugs to you and DH

[usuk]

sorry this is mental torture i know. we all think the sooner the better but even with MC we have no control. but it may sneak up on you. if you have back pain and some cramping, keep the motrin handy. take care of yourself we are all here if you need us.

[butterflybabies]

With my ectopic I did bleed it wasnt heavy and menstral like cramps except one day I had such bad cramps I thought I was gonna die..and I passed a chunk of tissue..after that my bleeding stopped...I was just wondering if my bleeding would start right away with the miscarriage..I did bleed right away with my ectopic..I had light bleeding yesterday but it went away..now that I know im miscarrying I just want it to start already..

[scienceteacher79]

My m/c happened with light bleeding at first. I don't know what my progesterone was, they never checked it at all. My HCG was around 80 something when I started to bleed and I pretty much bled and cramped and lost a lot of tissue. They kept checking my HCG and it was SLOWLY going down. I guess it all didn't come out because I ended up bleeding horribly about 2-3 weeks later after no bleeding for a while and had to have an emergency D and C to clean everything out. If your HCG takes a long time to get down or you keep bleeding or have weird bleeding (weird as in when you sit down on the toilet it POURS out, not like a period, almost as if you are peeing without peeing) you may need to have a D and C just to clean everything out and make sure there is no infection.

I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Since your first was ectopic, I assume you never really bled a whole lot? I don't know, I have never had an ectopic so I am ignorant to all this. There is a lot of cramping and some tissue will come out with a normal m/c. Don't freak, it is normal! Just watch out for anything "weird" and do not hesitate to call the doc for anything. Good luck sweetheart. We are here if you need us. Hugs to you and DH.

Jen

[anne72]

I'm so sorry!

[butterflybabies]

Thank You for your kind words and support! I truely appreciate them. I do have a question maybe someone can answer.... I know the baby stopped growing cause of my hcg levels and according to my progestrone dropping I should start bleeding soon...
I had cramps and some spotting yesterday and nothing at all today! Is it gonna take time for the bleeding to get started? I know with my ectopic when I had to shed all that lining it wasnt really to bad and I know it was thick cause of my ultrasound..its thick this time to and I was hoping to start the bleeding already since its the weekend...cause I have class during the week...
I have a killer headache these past 2 days , cramping (mild) and a backache...do you think it will start soon with my progestrone being 3.8 or does it need to go lower??
Thanks Ladies!!!

[maxwellrocks]

You are in my thoughts and prayers

[ita17]

I'm sorry hun ;-/  I hope this mc will pass quickly, & w/out too much pain.  2 things that are "good" like you said, your little bean made it to the right spot ;) & after a mc, (interuterin) you are WAY more fertile!  Take care of yourself, & I bet you will get your HEALTHY BFP SOON xxxx's
laura

[scienceteacher79]

I am so sorry! I am thinking of you and DH. Prayers and SSBD coming to you. Hang in there. We are here for you.

Jen

[jessiejames6802]

I am sooo sorry to hear of the loss. I wish there was something out there that could make you feel better but there isn't. I will have you in my thought and prayers and good luck to you.

Best of luck!!!

[nina2249]

I'm so sorry for both of your loses. Your in my prayers. I too feel like you. I miscarried in Dec08 have been trying ever since and nothing. Ive been so depressed lately I haven't wanted to get out of bed. Ive been to the RE a round of clomid and two rounds of Gonal-F and iui and nothing. I took a two month break thinking my body needs a rest.. WTH... Still nothing ! My dr says I have great eggs DH is normal and to boot i have two kids 12 and 18.. Just know all the women here are great that's why I come here to chat because alot have been there and done that and can share insight on what they have been through. Its great to know you can lean on a strangers shoulder and know you will be ok. Bless you and I wish you well.

[GiGiGiGi]

Lily,

I'm so glad that you are able to see that tiny bit of positive in this horrible situation.    Please know that all us girls pray for you to get through this and quickly move on to the next phase of your life - motherhood!

Hugs!

Gigi

[Jennifer3940]

I am soooo sorry that you are going thru this....It is so frustrating and disappointing to not know Why this has to happen.  I am glad to see you are trying to stay as positive as you can.  I just know that you will be blessed again.  

[vpg1004]

I am so sorry for your loss. I feel your pain and I hope that the 3rd time will be the one to make it.

Prayers to you...
Vangie

[stillwaiting52]

Lily, my heart goes out to you and your DH. I know just how much this s*cks! I am thinking of you and praying that the 3rd time is a charm! ((hugs)) You are such a wonderful person, it will happen for you, I just know it will.

[Quinns momma]

As always I am thinking of you.

Hugs,
Kelly

[newuser82]

i am so sorry this is so unfair.IM thinking of you and your in my thoughts and prayers xx

[usuk]

like the rest of the ladies - i am sorry and it makes no sense sometimes. but as you said yourself, all the mechanics are in place. you just need a good egg. take some good ibuprofen and take care of yourself.

[LILI1206]

i am so sorry for your loss. i wish i can say something to make it all be ok, but i cant. just stay strong have faith and i hope everything eventually can fall into its place. you are in my thoughts and prayers. im extremely sorry again

[si_di]

my heart goes out to you and tears fill my eyes while reading your post and writing mine to you...it's so tough lily i know, but keep strong,...don't stop trying and keep being faithful.
Cry, get upset, let it all out because it helps.
A big hug. My thoughts and prayers are with you
Silvia