Info for those of us in TWW period

[ascott]

I found this info on another board but it's very helpful.

this is what happens in a 3dt :

1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
5dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
7dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT

[ascott]

Girlie, You sound just like me. I have been going through this for 2 1/2 years. I was 33 when I had my first m/c. 5m/c later and one ectopic, I told myself the same thing if I didn't get pregnant by the time I turned 35 I would stop. It was just too late. Here I am 35 and three months and still going. But I do get discouraged at times. I am burnt out. This has become an obsession, an addiction. It is good to know that someone else is on the same page with me at times. I too wonder about all the hormones and the stress this is causing me. I even think about how this pregnancy will affect my weight. Sounds selfish? My husband and I don't share any children, but we have three children (blended family). We really want to have one together. But I dont want to look 40 either. Like you I don't look my age either. Always get a 27, 28 when people assume.
Don't get down and out. just hold on you have plenty of baby making years to do this. Just get on top of it sooner. I waited until last November to start seeing an RE. I did IVF on 08/16 and yesterday I got a BFP 10dpt. I am so excited. But my now my worries switch from getting pregnant to staying pregnant.
Thanks for being here to talk.
GOD bless.

[PhenomenalWoman]

you and I are 2 years apart so believe when I say I "know" how you feel.  I feel like a time clock is ticking in my ear making me rush to get what I want before it's too late.  The heck what medical science say about anyone over the age of 35 decrease their chances.  They must don't know my family.  The problem is I don't want to go beyond 35!  I have a cut off time for me.  I'm worried with all the hormones I will have pumped in my body the effects that may occur later from all of this.  I don't want to look 40 when I'm only 35...you know!  I look younger than my age now but with the weight I've picked up makes me feel and look older plus I'm worried about being Burnt Out before it ever happens...lol!  All because of these stupid hormones!

Please don't allow what I'm feeling or what I've said to persuade you or deter u from achieving your goal!  These are my feelings alone and shouldn't be taken personaly.  I wish everyone nothing but optimism and will continue to cheer u on!  I'm down but not out!  I still have IVF in the near future!

[PhenomenalWoman]

Thank you for that!  

[ascott]

No need to apologize. I feel the same about DH. He is very supportive, but there are many times when I feel as though he has no idea how draining this is. He feels like we have been going through this together, and technically we are, BUT it's my body, and my mind that goes through a temporary melt down each time I get a BFN, or I m/c. You know I have heard of some ladies getting pregnant when the finally get off all the meds.
I'm like you I feel like GOd won't give me anything I can't handle, but sometimes I feel like maybe he is telling me this is not his plan for me.

Just want Ya'll ( I'm a true Texan) to know how much it means to me to have others I can talk honestly, and be talked to honestly.
THANKS.

[PhenomenalWoman]

I know I avoided them akward moments by being up front with everyone that way there would be no mentioning of it later.  Not because I wasn't over it...of course it hurts...but I moved pass the pain when I gave it all to GOD in prayer!

So I press on and remember that HE wont put on me what I can't handle!

But I must admit I'm becoming tired of this whole process.  I took a test today after I got home from my classes and BFN and if that wasn't enough to hurt ...WARNING TMI...after wipen myself I had snotty clear like cm mixed with blood.  It's mentaly, emotionally and very physicaly draining.  I'm undecided if we should try one more time before I say enough is enough and just take a break or if I just want to wait for my name to move up on the list for IVF.  Decisions...decisions!  The only problem is I tried telling Dh that I was thinking of stopping treatment and he went bananas...lol!  He wants one as bad as I do but he's not realizing how draining this is to me.  Not to erase what he may feel like but still all he has to do is skeet in a cup while I'm being probed, poked and stuck!

Sorry guys I'm just speaking from the heart.  I'm very upfront and direct about how I feel!  Guess you can say I'm venting.  

Thanks to anyone who has read this and gave me the time to express/share my thoughts about all of this!  Much Love to all!

[Lexi72]

I am praying for you!  I know you will do great.  The TWW is torture.  It can make any sane person go insane.

Good luck,
Aleks

[ascott]

Oh I know, I keep trying to convince myself not to got to the store, and by a test. I have 4 more days after today. I test on 08/29. Feeling kinda nauseous today, but who knows. Just like you anxious and worried all at the same time. Keep thinking ok if i get pregnant can i stay pregnant. This just opens a whole new door. I will be so excited but wont tell anyone. Too scared I'll m/c again. It's hard to answer questions after the m/c. People walk up to congratulate and you have to tell the story all over again. I wish I could just be forsure you know.

[PhenomenalWoman]

I usualy don't get the chance to catch anyone by the time I'm on-line but for some reason I can't go back to sleep...10dpiui..need I say more...tww torture!  Its 5 almost 6 Pacific time and I end up responding when everyone is sleep...lol!

How's it going so far?  I'm anxious and worried at the same time.  I want to test but then again I don't.  You know!?

[ascott]

Definition of BETA test:
Psychology- a set of mental tests designed to measure the general intelligence of individuals unable to read and write adequately or at all.

We just thought they were testing us for pregnancy???? LOL!!!

I just crack myself up. Sorry this TWW is driving me crazy. I probably will have to see a psychologist when I'm done.