Hello New Here and Trying to Conceive Again after a year of not trying Need A Little Advice

[RockynRobyn]

Hello I am new here and I am in desperate need of some advice and a little time to vent. I am 27 years old and have been trying to conceive for about 3 years, but my trying has been very sporadic/off and on. in 2006 My DH decided that he wanted a baby. I already have a daugther from a previous relationship but he treats her as if she is his, however he decided that he wanted a child that was his biologically, which I had no problem with as I was very young when I had my daughter 16 and of course at that age (insecurities and a little shame) didn't let me enjoy the pregnancy and I've always wanted to have all of the stuff that I missed out on. So when he said it I was all for it. He has been a part of my daughters life since she was a newborn, as we were best friends before our realtionship went to another level so for what it's worth he's basically the only father she knows. Anyway like I said 3 years ago he decided that he wanted a biological child and so we were off to doing so. Well we BD'd like crazy for 3 months straight and nothing happened, and then all of a sudden my cycles started to go all screwy, after never being screwy before which boggled my mind and still does until this very day. So that lead me to go to Gyno in which with my age and never having a problem before she just gave me medgroxyprogesterone to start my cycle and it started and went back to normal at least for a couple of months and then all of sudden it was gone again this time I thought I was pregnant but I wasn't, and this lead me to an RE. When I gave her my medical history and the story of what was happening she did all of the routine test and we found out that I wasn't ovulating and so since we were trying by this time it was 2007 in the middle summer and that's when she decided to put me on Clomid at 50 mg's and we weren't successful the first month, and or the second month and then we took a break because the stress of TTC and of course the side effects (hormones) from clomid was taking a toll on our relationship and my mental health ( I was consumed and tired of being heart broken) anyway I went back to the doc in early 2008 and I was finally diagnosed with PCOS and was given Metformin and a weight loss program to follow and that was suppose to regulate my cycles and hopefully make it unneccessary for the clomid or any other medical interventions, cut to now (PS SORRY SO LONG) I've been taking my meds and loosing the weight and was given provera to start my cylce just recently and Im waiting to start my period, so I can go have the test to check for whatever it is they check for and then off we go again to hopefully have our little baby.  

So my question is to all of you ladies that have been in my shoes (as far as TTC) I am very scared to start this thing again, but I am also excited...are there any ways that you have of maintaining your sanity. Already Im starting to worry about my cycle not starting becasue I just finished my last provera pill and I'm so anxious for AF to show up so I can get started already and I don't even like that I'm back in this mind frame there has got to be something that will allow me to relax, and if not please tell me your stories maybe a few laughs or cries will help. I kind of just need someone to understand because all of my friends either have babies dont want babies or are just regular old 27 year old girls that really dont care. Ok sorry I've typed your eyes out, but it gets lonely being in this position and DH is as good as he can be but sometimes you just need a females point of few!

[RockynRobyn]

Yeah I love my DH too...but boy oh boy! HA! Thanks girlies...everyone seems really nice and Im so glad I found this community, because I sure been needing some sort of outlet! Thanks again!

[Mareski]

Like I mentioned in a previous post welcome!! it is great that we are all in the same boat and we have this to bounce ideas off of. I love my DH, but sometimes he doesn't get all of it and like you said, it's nice to have a females point of view.

[RockynRobyn]

Ahh man thanks so much! Im sure you guys know that I guess this time in our lives is really crazy, but I guess in the end it will be all worth it! Thanks again Good Luck to you too! I have got to loose alot more weight, but slowly but surely hopefully, I just can't seem to stay away from the carbs. But we'll all get there. Thanks again!

[texasangel343]

Welcome to the forum - glad you came.  

We are all in your shoes - been TTC for years now.  I think it looks good that you've been proactive and started seeing an RE.  I know the metformin works for alot of people - and I'm sure if I lost some weight it might make it a little easier!  LOL

Wishing you luck - and sending lots of SSBD your way.  I hope you see your BFP really soon!