August IVF -ers!

[peppypeep]

I know its a little early but I am looking for some cycle buddies for my August IVF.  This will be IVF #2 for this year.  I turned 40 end of December. My first IVF resulted in twins but stopped growing at 7 weeks.   I have been doing everything I can to prepare my body and mind for the next IVF.  I've shed 30 pounds (so far, and still losing) since the height of my last pregnancy, been doing acupuncture since mid-May, exercising 4 times per week and will start chinese herbs this week.  

So far, I had a clomid challenge test earlier this month and I was a 12.2 and it went down to 7.4!  This is the lowest number I have had in 1.5 years since I started seeing an IVF doctor.  So, I was very excited.  My insurance approved my IVF + assisted hatching so I am all set.  

Would love to hear from some of you about your journey and next procedure.  I took a break from the site for a few weeks because I had nothing much to report but want to get back into the community.  Hope everyone has a great summer and *****baby dust to all****!!!!

[Rozy_Rozy]

heyyy! well that's the best news that a heared this morning!!!! :):) Well GOOO and transfer the 5 embies if you can...that's what i did... i transfered 5 embies and took the risk, i begged my dr to accept!

yaaay Best of Luck MHV!!! praying for you! love youuu! kisses

[nakineen]

8 hours in a car with a sick bucket just in case not great but Scan went great.  Heartbeat 159. I asked dr for stats on sucess from now on and she said it all looked so good that 95%percent chance of take home baby!  The material we got given said 90%, so either is pretty good odds!  My ms had gotten worse and day before scan I was in bed vomiting and couldnt eat or drink.  Showering made me pant like a dog.  Explained all this to dr and got some medication (the only one she recommends as being safe) and I can reduce dose as I feel I need to.  I got week off work.

On the way home we went over heaps of bumpy roads and I felt sore and was spotting.  I now have to tell myself sore is prob enlarged ovaries moving around and spotting normal from scan.  When will I stop worrying?

Anyway feeling better today, maybe meds working, though woozy still when I get out of bed.

How are you doing?  Hows the pain?

[anne03]

How did your scan go? How are you?

[nakineen]

Thank you for your reasuring comments.

I'm so glad we are feeling the same (but not glad you are sick, (I wouldn't wish this sickness on my worst enemy).

YEAH for your scan and heartbeat!! That is just amazing news!!  How did you cope so far with no blood tests, they are all that kept me going, without them I think I may have been admitted straightjacket and all by now!

I am feeling a little better now, I can see a little clarity at the times I'm not so sick.  I still worry for scan in 2 days and then if good how to cope for 4 weeks until next one.  I will have to talk to the drs about it.

I like what you said about most woman are fine and I know reading all the bad material on the net is unhelpful as most woman that have no probs don't cruise those sights and post.

Thank you for your kind words, they have helped.  I must find a way to let go of the situation, for my sanity.

[anne03]

hi
im sorry you feel this bad. dont worry your feelings are completely normal. i have been feeling much the same.its the hormones.
the fear is understandable but you must try to rationalise it and realise 85% of pregnancies turn out well and it has more chance of being ok.
i think because we have gone through ivf we worry more - plus dont forget alot of the people on here have had problems so we only hear about those - there are so many people in the big wide world that fly through pregnancy without our worries.

i have the same nausea and annoying dh at times although at others he is so great.

i had my scan today and saw a heartbeat - i was so relieved. i havent even had one blood test done to keep my mind at ease!! They said i was 6 wk 6 days , which is a few days less than i thoughti was but they seemed really pleased and said everything is going really well and discharged me from fertility to maternity!! got another scan at 12 weeks.

i was soooo worried and nervous , still am but its normal and im trying to relax now. i still feel sick , all day today . its the hormones. They said my stomach ache is due to my ovaries still being very enlarged due to the ivf. it wonrt cause a problem and theres no fluid, they should go down as time goes by, but thats whats  been causing my stomach discomfort.

good luck with your scan - you will be fine, have faith

Anne x

[nakineen]

All my bloods have come back with really good rises (todays hcg at 7w4d is 136108) and my first scan is in 4 days.  

I however am doing absolutely rubbish.  I am supposed to be grateful but I am feeling truely awful on so many levels.  I have waves of nausea on and off all day and nothing helps I feel sick then burp up food for ages. I drag myself to work because it can be a good distraction but is so hard when people ask what is wrong because I look sick and I have to lie and make up an excuse.  Then I feel mad if someone doesn’t ask what wrong, like I must look like **** all the time so they don't notice. I have to force myself to eat most meals and cry all the time and am so anxious about the pregnancy viability.  I just feel like I have a permanent hangover and go to bed early because I'm so tired and don’t socialize with anyone so I don't have to hide being pregnant. I have a nose like a bloodhound soo many unpleasent smells are hard to avoid (like in my job when I have to change adult nappies sometimes) I have missed some work because I can't consentrate (like if I have to drive long distance). Am feeling super depressed. I can't talk to any friends about it cause I have told no one but my mum(and don't want to until wk 12), no one would understand as they haven’t been in my shoes anyway.  I actually have found myself wishing I would just hurry up and miscarry so this will all be over (because surly this pregnancy will end any moment like the stories I read on the net about getting good scan then baby dies etc). I have bad vivid dreams every morning and are so sad when I wake up and remember I am pregnant.  DH is so uncaring at times, doesn't offer any extra help, just is his same self where he thinks constantly annoying me is funny and I just can't handle that anymore. I tried to get a earlier scan from 4 different clinics but couldn’t (all drs away) and tried to get my free counseling at my clinic but cant get on day I'm in that town for scan.  I can’t believe after all I have been through that this is how I am feeling.

Sorry for the whinging, I know I sound so ungrateful and no one wants to hear a 'poor me' 'I'm pregnant' whinge when they would gladly be in my shoes.  I just am over whelmed with fear and unwellness and feel like what I have dreamed about for years is my worst nightmare in reality.  I can't believe this is how I feel.  I have read the huge surge in pregnancy hormones really can screw with your head.

Please tell me sisi you are well?