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Failed ivf today

My ivf failed today. First time I have tried. I feel such a failure. I can't stop crying and feel so very alone with my grief.  I had a positive test Wednesday but today my hcg level halved. I feel like it has been such a roller coaster fortnight.
I haven't told any of my friends we are doing ivf and really needing some support. All my friends have children and would not understand. What a sorry state of affairs.
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Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm going to keep praying that my day and time is still to come xoxo
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I'm so sorry for all your pain too. I don't think I really grasped how hard I was going to find all of this process. Everyone I have dealt with at clinics has been lovely but it is the crashing disappointment last week. It really is very tough and trying to explain how you are feeling to loved ones even, words really can't describe.
I keep everything crossed that you do go on to have a successful cycle xoxo
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I am so sorry! I know exactly how you feel! 5 yrs ago I had cervical cancer and removed all my cervix. Due to this I can only get preg thru ivf! I did it 7 times and 6 times it failed but the one egg implanted and it was just a miracle!!! With so so so much joy i lost the baby at 5w4d. After trying for 6 times I FINALLY got pregnant and lost the baby. Why why why is this happening to me?!?! Ever since, the ivf is unsuccessful (I also suffer from endometriosis and pcos). I am just speechless and devistated, upset, depressed and basically crying everyday and I still do. My heart is so broken I feel like I can never put those pieces back. Most of the times I blame my unlucky destiny and myself for getting HPV. I feel like nothing makes me happy anymore. I stopped logging on Facebook because it's so painful to see friends having babies.  I haven't told my friends and I'm basically coping this pain by myself. I hope one day we can have a beautiful baby! Until then we need to stay strong!
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Am really sorry for your loss :( but don't ever give up x I had a mc last year .. I know how hard it is x you keep you head up lovely x it will happen for you , before you know it xxxxxx
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Send u lot of love!!!
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I am so sorry for your loss. We'll keep you in our prayers. Don't give up, your miracle will come. You will always have us to support you. There are so many of us that have struggled to conceive too. You are never alone.
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I am sorry to hear this and that you cant talk to your friends about it. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason so when you finally hold your little one in your arms it will all make sense that he/she was meant to be yours.   Stay positive!
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I'm sorry for your loss..I had an ectopic pregnancy last month and I felt the same way..don't lose hope.. GOD has a plan. Ill pray for u
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