HOLY POO! You will NOT believe this!!!! POSITIVE TODAY!

[scienceteacher79]

As you all know - 2 weeks ago I was getting very very fainbt positives. Started bleeding 2 saturdays ago (brown and weird looking). Went to have my blood test done almost 2 wks ago EXACTLY! "Less than one" was my beta test. So, after all the money and pain, we lost another baby - or so I THOUGHT! Now, I had a little period the few days after I started bleeding - brownish, reddish, chunky (sorry - TMI!) - nothing like a normal period but whatever. Anyway, I finally had sex with DH again Saturday (yesterday) and started to spot (brown - dark, no red) which is completely weird. I never spot in between periods. Anyway, i had one digital test left and said "what the heck". I had literally JUST peed 5 mins before and managed to sqeeze out a few drops (like 5! haha) into a cup and stuck the test in. It started blinking so I jumped in the shower and put it on the outside ledge. AND THEN I SAW IT! YES+ IT SAID YES+!! So, i screamed for DH, tried to explain it to him and then started to laugh hysterically. IT WAS ALL I COULD DO!! HAHAHAHAH! So, of course I ran to walmart and got more tests!! HAHAH!! They are all positive! Not as dark as I feel they should be for almost 6 wks so I am not thinking this is going to work out to be a good scenerio BUT that is the darkest tests I HAVE EVER HAD!! HAHAHAH - I can not believe this. I am going to the doc at 8am sharp and hopefully will know something by 3 or 4pm tomorrow.

It is either going to be: remnants of something that tried to grow, an ectopic (god I hope not - I only have one good unblocked tube), or a miracle baby - sweet Lord! I am so freaked out right now!!!

Any thoughts?

[usuk]

your body really wants to be preg girl. it does not like to let go. i have never had the shot. i had the rest of the miscarriage buffet: D&E, D&C, and misoprotsol/cytotec pills. hope this part is short.

[rdh1981]

Oh Jen, that really s u c k s! I was really hoping and praying that this was it! You have been through so much and I keep praying that your happy ending will soon come!

Sending you hugs!

[Keyan]

I am really sorry it didn't work, will you be having another BETA, just to make sure is def not progressing??? just a thought! ...I wish you were having a healthy pregnancy, but if not, hopefully you will recover soon, physically and emotionally. HUGS!

[seattleview]

Other than being an emotional basketcase when I had to have TWO methotrexate treatments (total of four shots since each dose is actually one shot in each cheek) last year, I didn't have any side effects. It was REALLY hard for me to force myself to go in and have the actual injections, though ( I referred to them as "death shots"). Mine were for an ectopic and I was so distraught I didn't really care if my tube ruptured and I ended up in the ER or worse. Depressing and scary, I know! But I'm just being honest. But I truly had no side effects other than bawling my eyes out and wishing it wasn't happening. I'm sorry you have to experience this. Good luck to you.

[scienceteacher79]

Well, the levels didn't budge. This one seems to be in there and not growing or lowering. My first m/c was like this. I thought I ended up having a normal m/c (I was bleeding and losing tissue etc) and then weeks later started to  just pour blood and ended up having an emergency d and c. Doc still wants to try the methotrxate shot first (I would rather just have a stupid d and c and get this crappppp over with). So, i go in ttomorrow morning, pick up my script for the metho shot, go get the shot, and bring it right back so they can shoot me in the butt with it..OUCH! I just ahve a bad feeling about this shot. I have a feeling I am going to end up with the stupid d and c like the first time but the first time I walked around thinking for 2 weeks or so that I was done and then the d and c - ugh!! I think I am going to talk to my ob (who never called me back BTW!!) if the numbers don't go down fast enough. i just want this OVER so i can get on with my life. Everything just stops when stuff like this happens. I think i will just take the year off like I planned and go back at it in spring or summer time. We will see. Thanks everyone for being hopelessly optimistic - Lord knows I am not :) I knew it wasn't going to be good but it was nice of you guys to boost me up :) HUGS and love to all.

if anyone has any experience with Methotrexate i would really appreciate any advice or stories of what the heck to expect.

Love you guys - jen

[happynifer]

well we'll hope that you are around 100 on wednesday :)
you won't be able to see anything on ultrasound until about 1000 on your betas....so you've got a stressful couple of weeks until you'll know for certain, but crossing toes and fingers for you!