Changing my perspective

[hmaine]

Hi Ladies,

I just wanted to share an experience I had. I've been away from this forum for about a month (been trying to conceive 14 months now) because I just had a health scare. My family has a cancer history and I had to get something suspicious biopsied and it was just a nasty experience... BUT, man, did it put a new perspective on fertility for me.

Ever since I found out it's not cancer, I'm just counting my blessings every day. I realized that I was so focused on what I don't have (a baby) that my attitude about that was eating up the rest of my life. Anyway.. not to say I'm Pollyanna suddenly or that struggling with infertility doesn't bother me anymore, but letting in all the positive things in my life and giving them equal weight has been TREMENDOUSLY helpful to me emotionally. Just wanted to share that because I know what a negative place this struggle can put us in.

Baby dust and happy moments to everyone!

[Preciouspg]

Praise The Lord!!!... For Your Healing, Menatally and Physcially!

Thank-you for sharing your story.  It serves as a reminder that we do need to be thankful for what we already have in life and enjoy it.  When we do this, we are blessed with being able to move forward with life holding our hearts desire in a peaceful way.  GOD BLESS.

[Miranda9]

Hello,
Thank God that you are okay!  And thank you for sharing and reminding me of the blessings in my own life.

[hmaine]

thanks. I know, hbaurmann, I'm still puzzling over "how do I do that?" !! for a while, I was keeping a journal of noticing 5 positive things that happened every day (eating chocolate seemed to make it in there a lot...) and I think I'm going to try to keep that up.

also, when I was waiting for the results, I was just SURE it was cancer, I'm the most pessimistic pain in the butt, I drive my husband crazy with that. And that's how I can get about infertility- that it will NEVER happen. But it DOES happen, for lots of women who have struggled, and I was wrong about the cancer thing. So I'm trying to doubt myself- well, the pessimistic part of myself- more. And it's making it easier.

AF just came for me and we went out to dinner, it was like a bizarre celebration and I actually had a good time. And I'm making myself talk again about "WHEN we have kids" not "if"- it feels a heck of a lot better.

Anyway, maybe I'm crazy lately, but it's a good crazy.

[usuk]

amen.

[hbaurmann]

made me cry.  so happy to hear your negative results for cancer.  You are right!  This cycle of hope and devistation plays a horrible tole on the women ttc.  Hearing your story definitely makes me realize that i need to re-organize my priorities.  Get my head on straight.  Now... how do we do that? :- /
Thank you so much for sharing your story.  Good luck, and i'm sending massive baby vibes your way
xox