Helo everyone, as anyone of you will know who's been through a pregnancy loss, i'm not feeling great, just empty, numb, tearful, confused, devastated and guilty. was it my fault for lifting when i was specificaly told not to in the first few weeks.the bleeding started the next day so was it to do with this, i will never know.
we can't afford ivf again, i was £5000+ and stressful and no guarantees it will work again. Anyway Alfie my beautiful 21 mth old son was conceived by a miracle as I hadnt had periods for years due to eating problems. my body weight is low but the dr said with alfie , i just through out a random egg and it was fertilized. everysince he was born we have been trying with no success, they put me on clomid for 6 months which did give me a period every month for 5 months followed by a cyst! probably because i was on it too long. then we went down the ivf route in march/april this year which worked but i've lost it, didnt stay so after getting the BPF it came away 2 weeks later.
both me and my husband distraught and v sad,also my beloved dad died this year unexpectantly after thinking he had gallstones, went in for check up and was diagnosed with pancreatric cancer, died 10 days later. that loss is even more unbearable and my mum is just not coping still, they should have had another 20+ years together, he was only in early 60's. my mum was over the moon when we got the BPF she said it was gift from dad, but wasnt to be-now i dont know what will happen, we both desperatly want a sibling for alfie, but me conceiving naturally again is so unlikely. we did make love last night as i had stopped bleeding over a week ago but this morning there is blood, gp said is due to vigerous movement i.e intercourse and it is nothing to worry about probably a bit left over from the miscarriage. sorry to tell u all full story, but want any advice on getting pregnant again, have any of you had eating problems and got pregnant, or had miscarriage and got pregnant quite soon after, i'm now just 41 so really at the end scale to conceive naturaly, do you think i should just admit defeat and be thankful for what we have,and don't get me wrong we are so, so, so greatful for alfie, is it so wrong to want a sibbling. if any of you can help me at this awful time again i wil be really greatful, lots of you have been so kind recently with your posts.
thank you melissa