Need help obsessing!!!

[prayingforabfp]

I seriously think I am driving myself crazy!!! I am a poas-holic now! I did 5mg of Femara day 3-7...hcg 10,000 on day 12 and had my iui on cd 14. I had 2 follicles on cd 12 measuring 19 and 14mm, lining was 7.8, triple stripe....everything looked perfect when I had the iui on cd 14. So here's my dillema/obsession.....I started testing out my hcg shot 7dpiui using dollar tree new choice.

7dpiui 9 dp trigger faint faint pos - pretty sure hcg shot
8dpiui 10dp trigger neg- fmu
8dpiui 10dp trigger faint positive again *fairly diluted urine*
9dpiui 11dp trigger faint positive-fmu *a little darker than last nights test

heres the really horrible obsessive part..... went to walmart and bought equate early result 3 pack and clearblue easy digital 2 pack.....both claim 5 days earlier blah blah blah

So the equate early result showed a faint but clearly there second line almost right away much clearer than the dollar tree tests....the d*mn digital one says not pregnant but of course the strip has 2 lines and the second line is slightly darker than the equate test....I know your not suppose to go by the strips on the digital tests because they recognize lh as well....But which test should I believe?!?!?! All 3 brands are supposed to be 25 mIU...but then I found that the clearblue easy digital could be 50 mIU.

I'm trying really hard not to get too excited and don't want to call my dr for a beta quite yet....The hcg shot 'should' be out of my system but who knows for sure.....I of course plan on testing with fmu tomorrow and probably everyday until af or a really clear BFP.

Anyone have any experiences with any of these tests to share? Sorry for blabbering I guess I am a little worked up! LOL

[marevan]

Tested today with FMU and got very faint positive on $ Tree and Target brand tests.  I'm 10 dpiui, 12 dpt trigger and 7 dp booster HCG shots.  Could be the shots.  My RE says test 8 days after the booster so that would be tomorrow but I couldn't wait.  Hoping the lines get darker!!!

Last month I had faint positives at 9, 10, 11 dpo and negative at 12, 13 dpo.  AF came at it's regularly scheduled time.  Ahhh, another month of poas, waiting, and craziness.

[cctice]

I feel your pain...LOL. was in wal-mart today and bought a 3pk myself. Tested tonight ...still way too early and of course it was negative. Okay my iui was on August 5th...so would I be 9 dpiui or 8 d piui? Another words, do you count the day of iui or start with the day after...I will test tomorrow again and Sunday. I feel so bloated and a little crampy- it seems  a little different that AF symptoms, but then again I may be just wishing too much. I'm the same way..I just want to know one way or the other so I can focus on the next step. Good luck to all of us!!!

[ita17]

SOOOOOOO, had about 20 minutes extra before picking up my kids from school (year round school) & I drove past WALMART..........& pulled in, & bought a EFR 3 PACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  
I'm PROBABLY knowing ME will POAS tonight & tomorrow, & Sunday! Ughhhhhh!

Anyone else breaking down & GIVING IN!?!?!

[ita17]

FMU- first morning urine
I'm not testing today, I'll buy another two pack tomorrow......unless I start feeling AF come, THEN I'll buy a combo tampon pack! LOL
I still go back n forth on me!  I just can't help but think that if I'm NOT pg this month, then something is up!   Either my one & only tube is a bit blocked & or my uterus has some scaring.  I always get pg quickly & I highly doubt that the day I turned 40 99% of my good eggs retired! LOL
My ovary looks healthy on US w/plenty of follies, hubby's sperm count is above great, so I can't help but think hmmmmmmm?????

I'm the kinda person who JUST NEDS TO KNOW..the good & the bad.  So if I'm NOT I will have my Ob do an HSG for sure & that other procedure where they can take a look into your uterus.  My pap is due this month too, so maybe I'll go for the who package! hahahah :)
I just hope I STAY AWAY from the feminine product isles TODAY!!!!!!  Sick-of spending $$$ on them! LOL
Good luck to all you (& me) obsessors out there today!

[cctice]

Starting to get less hopeful myself, but trying to stay positive. It's still early for me 8dpiui. I on the other hand feel like I don't really have that many symptoms at all. I've been trying to imagine some, but the only thing I feel is a little more tired (could be due to the stressful week I've had) and a little discomfort in my lower abdomen- which I think I've felt before.. I'm praying we all get our BFP's!!! Scheduled for bloodwork on Monday. Of course I will test before then ...I plan to buy a pack tomorrow and let the real testing begin. lol. What is FMU short for?

[cctice]

I'm so sorry. I can completely sympathize with you. I did the same thing you did last month and was determined to prove to the dr I was preggo. I was even in seeing the dr the day AF came to dispute my #'s...lol. I have 6 more days to go this month before I know and I'm so scared that it will be negative again, but I've told myself that I have to stay positive!

[prayingforabfp]

Beta came back negative....don't know for sure what number just know under 7.....cramping more and more last hr so have a feeling AF is gonna decide to come early...I'm convinced it didn't work this cycle....But good luck to everyone still in the game so to speak! lol

[ita17]

I'm right there w/ya sister! LOL  I tested FMU & it was NOPE!  I was so bugged at myself, I wanted to wait til tomorrow or better yet for Saturday!  
I know what you mean about your symptoms!  My npps tingle off n on, still have more veins in my bb's my skin is being very strange, & I don't get weird skin before AF!  Also I tire easily & I'm not craving chocolate & I normally would by now.  AF is NOT due on Sunday......but I'm on prog. & that will take about 3 days to leave my system if I'm not pg so AF can show her bloody ugly FACE! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I sure hope we ALL get our BFP in the next few days!  

[prayingforabfp]

MiracleOfLife, Thank you for your kind words. Thats what I'm trying to do now. I'm not going to buy any more tests....Well try my hardest not to....


I called my dr and didn't even tell them about the tests I've taken at home. Just asked when the trigger would be out of my system. He never answered my question but had me come in for a beta today and then again on Tuesday. Not sure why so long of a wait for the second one though. Lab said it takes 2 hrs so hopefully I'll have todays results around 5pm. Praying for a high number but the little voice in my head is telling me to prepare for it to be a bfn.
I'm sure I'll be back on around then to report my results and possibly have my own pity party.

[MiracleOfLife]

You really really need to distract yourself! Go out and enjoy the sun, listen to some music... something. I know very well what it is like, the only way to make it a little bit easier on yourself is to do something else!!!
I wish you strength and patience whatever the outcome will be. Just remember it is out of your hands now and the best thing you can do is only to take care of yourself!

[prayingforabfp]

Thank you for all of your encouragement! I need all I can get....So I made an *** out of myself and called the clinic....My dr will be in this afternoon and the nurse will give him my message....Then she made me feel like an *** and said well you know you have to give it some time don't you? DUH I know it takes time but I'm impatient! LOL I'm out of tests except for one digital left and I don't even want to use that one or any other ones right now.....But dang it I hate waiting....and wondering.... And of course newish symptoms today keep getting these like flutters almost in my abdomen....not cramps really but just kind of i don't know....

still trying to hold out on crying too much yet....

[andria_luvs_her_boys]

BFP = Big Fat Positive ---- meaning a positve home pregnancy test!

[andria_luvs_her_boys]

Hey hun, I know just how you feel... I actually had a post a few days ago just like this one.. I was praying it was a real BFP but the stupid lines just kept getting fainter!! Yesterday at 10dpiui (12dpt) I only had the faintest of faint lines...where only I could prob see it...a normal person would call it negative! I was devastated!!! But lastnight I started cramping a little more & my boobs were getting a little more sore/tingly! I'm thinking how can I have these symptoms if trigger is pretty much gone?? So I'm praying there still might be a chance (not pms) & maybe it's just to early to tell? I've read a lot of girls having a BFN until atleast 12dpiui..With my last IUI I didn't get my true BFP until 12dpiui (I got one at 10dpiui but I'm thinking it mightve been trigger too) DS is now 20months old... So I decided not to test today! (a part of me is just scared of a total BFN) & if I'm strong enough I'll test on sat! Hoping it will be a nice BFP!
So like what people told me.... Dont give up hope yet....it's still way too early!! Just wait until the morning & test!

Hopefully we both get our REAL BFP soon!!!  

[Quinns momma]

I know it is hard when you beome a pee on the stick addict BUT hold off until tomorrow or Sat morning with first morning urine.   Your body needs to build up enough HCG so give it some time. If u test in 2 days and it is neg then u know it was the trigger shot. If you test and it is a BFP you can be pretty confident that it is legit. :)

[Eva125]

I know this is a stupid question, but I'm just wondering what BFP means?

[prayingforabfp]

Ok so now I'm on the verge of tears....for a valid reason instead of out of the blue like the last couple days....Could it really be the trigger shot still or are all 3 equate tests faulty..... I took an equate at midnight.....and then did a dollar tree and the last equate one at 9am....The equate at midnight was the same as the one from yesterday afternoon....But dollar tree is negative this morning.....or the very very faintest of lines......the equate this morning I think is a little bit lighter.....Still having symptoms galore....headaches....crampy....pulling in my side.....elevated temps....lower back ache....and of course the mood swings....I don't know what to do.....part of me wants to just wait today out and test in the morning.....but another part of me is saying to test again later this afternoon since thats when I got the darker equate yesterday.....:( I don't know...I was actually starting to believe it was real last night

[luvkayln]

Prayingforabfp- Hey girl! I sent you a note, but I can't wait for your update this morning!! Oh, fyi: the tests I took at 9dpiui and 13dpiui were dollar tree tests! :) What you should do is pee in a disposable cup, take your dollar tree and equate brand tests, and if they show dark positive or even darker from yesterday's, take the digital so you'll have no doubts cuz it'll say PREGNANT!!! Yay! :)

[ita17]

last month I tested til 8DPO & my HCG was out, then I tested two days later @ 10DPO & I got a faint second line, it was THERE!  I was so excited, it was 11DPtrigger!  Well, the next two days after @12 &13DPO I tested & it was a BFN ;-(
I really don't think it was the trigger, just cuz it was like 11dp trigger & I had a BFN @ 8DPO.  
I was VERY bummed.
I am also an ADDICT of POAS's LOL  Last month I took probably 12!  Cuz I was seeing when my trigger was out.
This month I took one  to see about the trigger, & 2xs just for self torture!   LOL

[prayingforabfp]

OMG!!! I'm trying so hard not to freak out here! I keep doing google searches trying to find a reason to not get my hopes up so high....But all the information is out-dated and for the +/- equate tests. I will definately be posting pics of tomorrow mornings tests for you to analyze with me....Praying that its darker and debating on whether to try the digital again tomorrow morning too...For sure will be doing equate and dollar tree!! I think I have OCD!! I just can't wrap my head around the fact that it could finally be true...And if it is I'm just praying that baby or babies stick....Don't think I could handle another miscarriage either! LOL So much to worry about and need to try not to... Its amazing what us women go through!!

[cctice]

I see the second line too!!!!

[luvkayln]

I can definately see a 2nd line!!! I'm getting excited for you!!!! :) Test again in the morning, and I'll be looking for your update! Good luck! :)

[prayingforabfp]

LOL It could be the trigger still. I'm sure thats what mine was at 7dpiui but by the next morning it showed negative. Just try not to go overboard like me...I've already taken 3 today and have to keep telling myself nothing is going to change if I go take another one today and to wait until morning to see if its darker! Lol Praying we both have BFP this month now!

[prayingforabfp]

OMG I hope your right! I posted a picture of the equate test to my profile. My mom called while I was uploading the pic and I can't tell her yet or my DH! But I'm definately taking another test in the morning and praying its darker, if it is I might be calling my dr for a beta. But not sure if I should wait to call the dr until I'm closer to being due for AF. 10dpiui isn't too early to request a beta is it? LOL I'm just in complete shock now the line hasn't faded or changed in any way since I took it 2 hrs ago....Crossing all my fingers and toes hoping its true and the little bean sticks!

[cctice]

Okay..now I've jumped on the obsessive bandwagon.lol. After reading your post, I decided to test. I had 1 test here and I'm only 7dpiui. I tore opened the whole test after it said not pregnant...to see what the lines showed. It was just a very very light faint line next to the test line. I'm sure it was the trigger too, but now I'm all excited. I promised I wouldn't test early this time, but now I'm gonna test every day again...lol.