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This is just not my month
I am a project manager so I had this whole month planned out. I know my body pretty well, and I was sure everything would go according to plan. Well I was way off:
On CD 7 RE told me that I had 3 follicles that were 14mm. I was exstreamely happy for such good results so early in a month.
On CD 9 a different RE said that I had 2 follicles that were 12mm. Turned out that the previous RE made a mistake or something.
On CD 11 those 2 follicles have grown to 14mm. The progress to me seemed very slow compared to the previous month.
Today on CD13 there is not change still 2 and still approx 14mm. Turns out on CD11 they wanted me to increase my dose, but guess what no one called me. This just pissed me off. And they are telling me it's ok, I can start that today. Well, It NOT OK, bec I'm running out of meds for this month only have left for today and not enough to increase a dose. I probably won't get new meds till tomorrow. Plus will be out of town on Monday/Tuesday, so our plans for IUI might be ruined, and we won't even be able to bd.
I just felt like crying when I left the clininc, now I feel like screeming. The clinic is starting to feel more like a factory, they don't talk to you just in and out, one person after another.
I'm going to call my insurance pharmacy and a local pharmacy and see what I accomplish.
Sorry for a long story just needed to vent. AHHHHHHHH
On CD 7 RE told me that I had 3 follicles that were 14mm. I was exstreamely happy for such good results so early in a month.
On CD 9 a different RE said that I had 2 follicles that were 12mm. Turned out that the previous RE made a mistake or something.
On CD 11 those 2 follicles have grown to 14mm. The progress to me seemed very slow compared to the previous month.
Today on CD13 there is not change still 2 and still approx 14mm. Turns out on CD11 they wanted me to increase my dose, but guess what no one called me. This just pissed me off. And they are telling me it's ok, I can start that today. Well, It NOT OK, bec I'm running out of meds for this month only have left for today and not enough to increase a dose. I probably won't get new meds till tomorrow. Plus will be out of town on Monday/Tuesday, so our plans for IUI might be ruined, and we won't even be able to bd.
I just felt like crying when I left the clininc, now I feel like screeming. The clinic is starting to feel more like a factory, they don't talk to you just in and out, one person after another.
I'm going to call my insurance pharmacy and a local pharmacy and see what I accomplish.
Sorry for a long story just needed to vent. AHHHHHHHH
LJ - sounds we're in the same boat with frustrations. Venting make me feel better, that's what I love about this forum, bec personally I can't vent to anyone else excetp DH, and sometimes he is just not very helpful. He analyzes things too much and suggests that I sue them or report them to better business bureo. Where would that get me.
Tricia - after I stopped feeling sorry for myself and angry at the clinic an pharmacy's yesterda, I figured there is always the next month. Of course it would be great if I got good news before the end of the year, but it's really out of my control. I'm just thinking that what if against all odds it will work this month, just like in movies...wishful thinking :). If nothing happens, I have vacation to look fraward to in Feb.
Kidergal - Nope my RE doesn't have any meds they don't even have extra neadles. They told me to order from the pharmacy or go to one of the participating local pharmacies. Yesterday I uderstood that people just don't care what they do. I mean the REs or even the people at the pharmacy they couldn't even tell if they do reinburesments if I pay out of pocket for meds.
Tricia - after I stopped feeling sorry for myself and angry at the clinic an pharmacy's yesterda, I figured there is always the next month. Of course it would be great if I got good news before the end of the year, but it's really out of my control. I'm just thinking that what if against all odds it will work this month, just like in movies...wishful thinking :). If nothing happens, I have vacation to look fraward to in Feb.
Kidergal - Nope my RE doesn't have any meds they don't even have extra neadles. They told me to order from the pharmacy or go to one of the participating local pharmacies. Yesterday I uderstood that people just don't care what they do. I mean the REs or even the people at the pharmacy they couldn't even tell if they do reinburesments if I pay out of pocket for meds.
Hi Girls, Thanks for all of your kind words.
Something interesting happened yesterday, DH called it "the mirricle of Hannukah" :). I went to do my shot, dialed 75 on the follistim pen, but was sure that only 50 would inject and I would stop at 25. Well all 75 injected. I couldn't believe it. Mybe the few drops that I have left in the vial will last me for 8 days? ha ha.
Anyways I'm in a slightly better mood today, expecting new meds. I'm going to RE tomorrow and then most probably on Sunday. I think IUI is definitelly out of the question this month, but we'll bd Sunday night and possibly Monday morning before I leave. If sperm can live for 3 days if I ovulate while in Toronto, maybe I'll still have some left over sperm. We'll resume Bding on Tuesday night when I'm back.
One other thing I have to worry about is what if I won't be ready for a trigger shot on Sunday, they won't be able to monitor me, how will I know when to do it, also how will I take the meds with me on the airplane. I think I have to get some paper from the clinic.
Something interesting happened yesterday, DH called it "the mirricle of Hannukah" :). I went to do my shot, dialed 75 on the follistim pen, but was sure that only 50 would inject and I would stop at 25. Well all 75 injected. I couldn't believe it. Mybe the few drops that I have left in the vial will last me for 8 days? ha ha.
Anyways I'm in a slightly better mood today, expecting new meds. I'm going to RE tomorrow and then most probably on Sunday. I think IUI is definitelly out of the question this month, but we'll bd Sunday night and possibly Monday morning before I leave. If sperm can live for 3 days if I ovulate while in Toronto, maybe I'll still have some left over sperm. We'll resume Bding on Tuesday night when I'm back.
One other thing I have to worry about is what if I won't be ready for a trigger shot on Sunday, they won't be able to monitor me, how will I know when to do it, also how will I take the meds with me on the airplane. I think I have to get some paper from the clinic.
Does your RE office have some extra meds? I am going through the same thing. AF showed up four days early after a Thanksgiving IUI. My RE was not in on Monday to tell the nurse how much I should order so it did not get ordered until Tuesday AM. I get it from overseas because it is cheaper. BUT, it will not be here for several days. My RE office gave me a few bottles. Then, they offered a few names of patients that have some meds left over that they are not using and want to sell them.
I also had a follicle confusion. For the first to u/s the nurse said 4 follicles..I do not remember the size. The third u/s was done by the nurse prac. who only saw two good follicles and commented that she did not know why the nurse told me there were four...ugh!
Oh well, the joys of ttc! UGH!
I also had a follicle confusion. For the first to u/s the nurse said 4 follicles..I do not remember the size. The third u/s was done by the nurse prac. who only saw two good follicles and commented that she did not know why the nurse told me there were four...ugh!
Oh well, the joys of ttc! UGH!
uh... i feel so sad for you....its like you just wasted a month of doing injectibles...never the less the emotional stress behind it all. i hope in some way it will all work out for you this month. if i had extra follistim...i swear i would ship it over to you!!!!! i feel like the place i go to is like a factory as well....
try and stay positive....we will all have you in our prayers!!!!!
try and stay positive....we will all have you in our prayers!!!!!
I'm so sorry for your circumstances. I know the frustration can be so stressful! I'm having a similar month myself. Seems nothing is going right in my life this week and month much less adding the baby factor to the equation. I don't even understand what my dr. is doing, or how this Clomid Challenge Test works. But was told because the CCT is in progress this month then I can't get the u/s and/or trigger shot because they'll interfer. Yet, I'm afraid of wasting another $700.00 on an IUI that will most likely not work because my last FSH level was so high. I'm 42, and EVERY month is crucial they say in terms of fertility. So, if this puts me back another month or two, I'll be close to 43 and then conception is next to impossible without very expensive treatments, that I can't afford on my own. Whew....I just needed to vent. I'm going to call the clinic and MAKE them expedite my referral so I can get the injectables, trigger whatever it takes.
Not to mention I've been in court for a car accident from 4 years ago that last two days, it didn't go well. My ex-boyfriend is giving me greif and I've got to buy sperm because I don't have a partner to share this with. I'm working essentially 3 jobs to finance this venture and I'm sad and frustrated. Wow, my pity party is over. Thanks for tolerating me!!
Bottom line, Lexima - I sympathize with you. I'm going to say a prayer for ALL of us!!
Not to mention I've been in court for a car accident from 4 years ago that last two days, it didn't go well. My ex-boyfriend is giving me greif and I've got to buy sperm because I don't have a partner to share this with. I'm working essentially 3 jobs to finance this venture and I'm sad and frustrated. Wow, my pity party is over. Thanks for tolerating me!!
Bottom line, Lexima - I sympathize with you. I'm going to say a prayer for ALL of us!!
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