I strungulted myself by stop breathing, and now i have a strange pain

[Black_Pearl]

Hi
Yesterday, I had a lot of pain, all over my body, back, neck, chest, arms, legs and Migrain.
I felt that my head will explode.
In addiion to all that , i felt bad, depressed, and a strange dislike to food and drinks ( this is not me)
actually , i'm still feeling that till now. my colleges at work said that i'm walking like a dead mummy.

I felt bad last night that i tried to stop breathing by shutting my mouth and nose. I tried that many times, I do not know how did I do that, but my hands stucked holding my nose & mouth shutt
I felt pain in the chest, blury eye vision and legs started floundering.
untill now i still feel the pain in left upper side of my body. like i'm having a stroke
Is this because of stopping breathing? or It's just a coincidence that this side staied painfull the whole night and day.

Shall I look for a doctor? or I do not and ignore till it goes!!

[Black_Pearl]

I appreciate it :)

[Black_Pearl]

First of all, thank you for the comment, I do always tell myself that there are more others who suffer than I do, and I do not actually want to die, that's why i freaked out when that happen, and I do not know how I did it.

I'm trying to make me feel better, and i'm really glad that i joined this commity, when i try to tell others, it's like i'm speaking Alian language. it feels good that someone understand.

There is no doctors in my country that can deal with my case, and i'm not brave enough to go to hospital and tell them that i stoped breathing in purpose, they cann't see the whole picture.!!

I'm sick and tired of seeking solutions.. 20 years, trying to find out what's wrong with me, and when i find out, i could get no help..

Thank you very much

[PlateletGal]

You are in my thoughts & prayers. Please feel free to send me a private message if you need some support.

[MoesQueen]

black pearl,

it sounds like you had a hard day,
when your entire body works against you,
when you mind starts to play tricks on you, and you can hear the pain talking...
and nothing, not even the comfort food was right.

you know, when i get like this i try and remember that there really is someone worst off than me.

that there is someone out in the world, or it could be down the street that does not have a leg, or arm, a baby with no feet, a child that lived 46 days because they were born with a hole in there chest cavity and the heart was developed on the outside of the chest. veterans that are homeless, and lost there families. slave trading, i can go on but i want because you get the picture now.

what do you think?
you tried to hurt yourself...
no you! you tried to take yourself totally out!
who will that hurt?
so now you have to deal with additional pain that comes with muscle strain, and no oxygen to the brain etc...

is it attention that you need?
oh! thats right you asked if you should go to the dr.,
let me ask you a question...
is your life that bad ?

yes you need to see a dr.,
you need to be talking to someone one on one...

beating around the bush is not in my character!!!!!!
stop playing around with death, one day you might forget the rules and not win the game that you think you want to play.

i'm glad that you a re reaching out for help, but it really sound like to me that you physically need to walk yourself to a hospital a be honest about what you are dealing with and get some help.

that is what i had to do, the pain was to GREAT for me and i had to get help and thank God that he kept me here to be able to give you tis message.

you can make, with his help in my opinion.

black pearl,
death is final this is my opinion again...
and your life is worth living, after all why are you here on this earth?

that is what you are looking for right, opinions...

there it is...

moesqueen