Hi, I just found this site yesterday and it made me feel ten pounds lighter. My doctors are also telling me I'm obsessed with my health and are refusing to do anything but give pills. I need some advice from you guys if you have a moment. I have alot of things medically going wrong right now I'll try to keep it short and I'm curious what you guys would think?
Since I was very young and to this day I am very clumsy I bump into walls etc a million times a day, burn myself, trip, lose my balance and have near fainting spells and about 10 or 15 successful ones (my elementry school report cards even say "she often bumps into walls", it must have been really noticeable)
I catch everything that everyone has, my immune system isn't good
I have had sleeping problems as far back as I can remember and have been looking for a fix since I was 19 years old, I am now 29. Sometimes I get 20 mins a night, no sleep or a few hours.
My memory is poor, my reflexes slow, I shake, I'll be holding a glass of water and it falls to the floor for no reason, it takes forever to learn things and I have trouble finding my words.
I am getting depressed because of this and my behaviour has changed
My back, neck hurt all the time
I have never ending headaches that usually sit about a 8 on 10 on a pain scale with the odd migraine and barely a moment with relief
My vision is getting worse when watching tv the words on the tv look double etc etc etc
I could keep going here, so you guessed it my doctor put me on so many antidepressants and other pills I was taking 17 pills a day, this is before and test were conducted and then asked me to admit myself to the psychiatric hospital and I did, so desperate for help (at this point I went a week with two hours of sleep and a massive headache) they had me so drugged up I couldnt walk or function it was sad really. So I asked to be discharged five days later.
I spend two months like a zombie wasting away in bed and went from 143 pounds to 125 pounds. Then I just got sick of being sick I started to do some research and I brought this to teh attention of my dr. I asked for an MRI as I have two close family members with MS and 2 with begnine brain tumors, he said NO. He also sent me to a counsellor at this time who told me I was obssessive compulsive, maybe I had ADD (put me on meds for this) etc etc. I was on so many meds I had to keep track of appointments and symptoms in a binder which I carried as the coctail of these pills: (I have to let you see what they had me on over the past 5 months its scary):
Mirtazapine, temazepam, sertraline, seroquel, mertazapine, fluoxetine, imovane, methoprazine, diazepan, adderal, clonazepam, trazodone, topimax, (Valum, Prozac etc...)
The counsellor said I was obsessed with my binder. I was so frustrated I stopped writting in it and started missing appointments because i couldnt remember. Anyways, I went to my sleep doctor and asked for an mri, he was willing to do one to check for a tumor, they found a small sublenticular cyst(on the third ventricle of my brain), he had no idea what it was, googles the definition and says yah your fine anyways you look good Ill see you in January. ????
So now I'm back at my dr to give me an MRI to rule out MS and they look at me like I'm crazy, they ask, do you want to be sick??? Oh yes thats my dream. I'm so frustrated, I'm 29 I have a good education and had a good paying job that I had to take sick leave from 5 months ago so now I m making 40 % of my pay and Im still sick and now I'm broke and apparently I want to be sick as well. Does this sound like MS or fibromyalgia to you or anyother disease or issue you've hear of?
Im just so tired