I had been expecting it...not prepared for it emotionally, but intellectually I knew it was coming. In addition to the original injury to my back, I have developed Fibromyalgia. My bodily system has changed in some unknown way as a response to trauma.
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i have really mixed feelings about this. on one hand, it is really nice to know that I am not crazy; That there are other people out there who have gone through the kind of pain I have, who have felt the ssame bizarre sensations, and had the same "mysterious" symptoms that I have.
On the other hand. It does feel a bit overwhelming. (okay, A LOT overwhelming, lol!) I feel kind of like I have just arrived in class to take big exam I forgot to study for, or arrived unprepared to an important business meeting.
Does anyone have any advice or experience to share as far as going about "accepting" that in addition to the sponsylothesis/osis, thoracic facet syndrome, and PTSD, I also have the effects of fibromyalgia to deal with?
In many ways it is also a weight of my shoulders to know that so many of the odd and bizarre things happening to my body are partially explained by something. It is extremely comforting to know that others have experienced the same things I have.
Anyway. the hardest part for me to deal with is that there is no cure, and the medical community seems to have no idea what causes fibromyalgia. I will be stuck with it for the rest of my life, even if my back injuries could somehow be "fixed", I have still been irrevocably altered by fibromyalgia. It is like having a life sentence of pain and torture being read to me. I had hoped to be able to one day get off of all my medications and have children. Now it seems impossible with the medications I have to be on, or the pain and symptoms I would have if I were to stop all my medications.
Any words of advice/encouragement?