when nothing works???????????

[LoisMary]

I hurt so bad.  I can't get into the tub, even the shower hurts too much and hot water has always been my escape.  I hate to admit this but Ive actually eyed the shot gun.  I just can't take it any more.

[Debby317]

I know how you feel I have often thought...ok I"m 48 what is the rest of my life going to be like?? I been through so many drugs from percocet to methadone. My Dr finally found a new drug called Opana ER. I'm on week 2 of no pain !!!! I know it's additive but it works for me. Ask him about it. I take 20mg at night and 10 during the day. I feel like a different person. I'm glad you got rid of the gun! Your not done here yet you have so much to offer. Please hang in there and remember we are here for you.

[Barb925]

I'm glad you seeked some help.  How did you dr. appt go yesterday. I have one today at 1pm. Wish me luck.

[LoisMary]

Thanks everyone!
I'm still here!  Got rid of the gun, called people, got help.  My Dr will be changing my med.s monday.  I thought I could get myself off Norco 10/325.  I've been taking about 6 a day for years and they just don't work.  I've tried a lot of things and nothing seems to work, not even the morphine patch.  I'm at my wits end and really can't take this pain anymore.  I'm sick of being an addict, I'm sick of looking bad, sick of feeling bad sick of not being happy just plain sick of being sick period.  And Kyleen, pot works some but I'm also sick of being fat and I eat like a pig when I smoke it.  I'd love to be on a motercycle though, maybe I'd be able to forget some of this **** I'm so sick of.

[rhyannon]

My heart goes out to you.  Most people with chronic pain have felt so poorly at one time or another that suicide seems the only way out.  We don't want to die; we just want the pain to stop.  It isn't the real answer, but it does provide an option....an option not taken, is how I look at it.  I am 60 and have been in pain (at varyling levels and varying places) for over 15 years.  My thoughts (for what they are worth) include (1) traditional pain killers rarely help with this kind of pain, and (2) they are horribly addicitve.  After trying to find one that works we are faced with continued pain, sometimes at  a higher level, AND an addiction to prescription painkillers. (3)  Cymbalta and Lyrica do help in lowering the pain level in many people; they are really helpful for me.  They don't eradicate the pain, but it's power over me is gone. (4)  It requires a major, major shift in perspective and attitude to get through this.  We have to look at the glass as half-full, or we'll just curl up and die.  No matter how much pain I have (and some days I would rate it a "10" in all areas), I have something to be grateful for.  No, the pain remains, but I have changed my view of it, just to survive.  (5)  Mental health counseling might help in adjusting to your present state of things.  (6) Chronic pain is depressing, and we can't ignore that reality.  We have to deal with depression for the rest of our lives: keeping it at bay may be the best there is.

I have several really good friends I can talk to, I make use of forums and message boards to vent, and I stay current on pain control.  I discovered, for example, that my pain lessens tremendously when I am on the back of a motorcycle. (I don't drive one myself).  I am guessing that riding pushes my serotonin levels WAY UP ! Enough to override the pain messages for a little while.  And, as politically incorrect as it is, marijuana also helps.  If I'm not mistaken fibro is one of the recognized conditions in California that allows for medical marijuana.  I know that all these coping strategies don't fix me, but they help me make it through one more day or one more night.
Most of all, keep you faith up for it will carry you far on this desolate stretch of highway.

Take care,
Rhyannon AKA Kyleen

[888mom]

Oh, forgot to say, I'm in my 30s now.  Over 15 years of dealing with pain and fatigue and health issues.  I have found lots of reasons to live for.  You have to find things.

[888mom]

Talk to people.  Call all your friends/family/coworkers/whomever.  You are totally worth it. Don't think about suicide.  Life is worth living.  I take Lyrica.  It has done wonders for my pain.  Doesn't take it all away, but it gets the worst of it.  I've had pain since I was 18 and has gotten worse over the years.  Though, I think around 19 or 20, I was in such a horrible emotional situation, angry that I had pain almost every day, and not sure if I'd have it for the rest of my life, and angry because I didn't know why I had it and doctors saying it was just in my head.  Talking to people helped me get through.  I still have to talk to people.

[Barb925]

Do me a favor, do not ever think about suicide. You are worth it and I will help you through it. I also hurt all the time. I take vicodin 7.5/350 every 4 hours and baclophen 20mg 3to4 times a day and I still hurt. My dr is putting me on morphine tuesday. Have you thought about lyrica. It does make you sleepy and first and can cause weight gain. However, if you eat a balanced meal and try to stretch, believe me I can't even exercise. I am just throwing out some suggestions. Let me know if they help any.


Take Care and Be Safe

Barb