-protip, The gas is the only thing i really want gone the most ive tryed things like gas-x to no sucess (xanax works, but i am not prescribed them)
Hi, im 17 years old, ive had this problem for about 3-5 years now, not so sure how long its been i dont feel like doing the math, but its been since i was in eighth grade. I can rememberf the day like it was yesterday, i was sitting in health class and all of the sudden i started getting this gas that i couldnt stop, not loud like obvious farts, just like silent slow seeping gas, that i cant seem to stop no matter how hard i try. This happens when im around people (especially girls) , like if i have to sit infront of people in class or something it gets really bad, This is so terrible to have at my age, i feel as if im being robbed of my Golden years. I was really popular and had alot of friends before feeling this and now its like nobody even remembers me, I have dropped out of school because of this and its really destroying my life, ive been to gastro doctors and had blood tests and all of that, they tell me im normal, besides and ulcer or something in my stomach, which they say shouldnt cause the gas. Thid happens EVERYDAY, im tired of it, sometimes i think about what my life would be like had i never gotten this sickness, disease. I AM NOT A DRUG ADDICT, but just as a test i took a xanax from a friend to see if it was anxiety, and guess what...... The gas stopped when i took it. I dont understand how this can happen, Is it all in my mind???? am i going crazy??? sometimes i have to ask myself these questions. I had a hard childhood and i was for the most part normal until that day in 8th grade. I get real nervous when im about to go out or something with my friend because I KNOW IT WILL HAPPEN, this is the worst feeling. It makes you feel as if your friend dont want to hangout with you or something just cause you have it, and i also feel guilty being around them because lets be honest who wants to sniff a fart all day. Over the past years i found myself hiding in my room trying to stay away from civilazation because i DONT want to be the stinky kid, and ruin my whole reputation over something i didnt ask for...... Sometimes i wonder why god would do this to me, Is he trying to teach me a lesson??? sometimes this makes me even question if there is a god, i beg him for a cure or help Often and he never answers back, i mean if god is real how could he do this to me, Ive never done anything to deserve this, in fact my whole life for the most part has been crap so he should give me a break. Anyhow this isnt a religious site so ill stick to topic and explain more in depth what i feel when this goes on, because ive been trying to analyze it more and more over the years tyo understand and hopefully try to conqour. When this is going on sometimes i feel a burning in the middle of my chest, almost as if something is evaporating in my stomach and i can feel it. I find myself Yawning alot when im not even tired. I cannot sit anywhere around people, My butt feels so unconfortable, Anywhere, no matter how conforable the chair i still get this gas around people and i dont understand. Sometimes i try to burp to see if it calms the gas from coming out the stinky end, ..........No help..... it still happens - I noticed the musle in my chest are a little bit uneven, i dont know if this has anything to do with it - Sometimes, i get a really sharp "eletric" type shock feeling in my left shoulder blade. Sometimes when im sitting and the gas starts and i try to reposition the way im sitting it helps the gas a little. The gas does not happen as much whem im standing. or behind people, like if im sitting in the back of the class, or back of the bus, then again sometimes it doesnt stop if people are near me. When someone is behind my back or something real close too me is when it REALLY kicks in, like if im sitting front seat of a car and someone is behind me, OMG id rather just not be there, then have to feel the way i do when im in the situation, which is why i mostly try to stay away from people, and why i dropped out of school..i am for the most part healthy, 17 year old male, 130 lbs. i just dont understand how or why this would happen to someone like me, the way i was living, i was a legend where i lived, everybody loved me, and it just started taking over my mind... I just want some answers, some help already please. When i have to poop it gets alot worse , the gas is alot more abundant and id image its more smelly, but hers another weird thing that i dont understand
This seemed important so i wanna make sure people see this I CAN NOT SMELL THE GAS, BUT I KNOW IT HAPPENS I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I JUST CANT SMELL IT BUT I CAN TELL OTHERS DO
My doctors are useless, they refer me to different doctors and tell me nothing is wrong i am fine.
I went to a shrink for about 2 visits and decided i didnt want to go anymore just because it felt unconfortable Talking to some lady about my life, Like what does she know its not like she is living with this disease, or overcame it
Also there is mental symptoms, im not sure if its because of the gas, or the gas is because of the mental problems, but sometimes i feel afraid to say stuff, and i just feel not myself, i find myself thinking in my head alot of the time im around people and feeling awkwardly unconfortable. The best way i can su this up is its like im fighting for control of my brain, my brain just wants to focus on the gas and what other people are thinking while verything around me goes on with life, im just left sitting there quiet thinking about what im feeling right now. The hiding away from people because of my gas is hard, sometimes i feel like it doesnt help but just worsens it because then i have less human interactiong, but i really dont want people to see me like this, its like my life has been one constant stress since i got this and i beleive its going to make me die young, Stress is no good for the body and thats all i know anymore is stress and pain, because i dont ever feel happy or excited about anything because i know my stomach is going to act up everywhere i go and ruin the mood.
Its funny how i looked at life before this, I couldnt understand how such small things could have such big reprecussions until this happened to me, like some people dont chose their lifestyle and some things are just brought unto them. This has helped me alot become a more passive person, and understand peoples struggles, like before you might find me once in a while making fun of someone becaue the way they smell or look but now that i have this problem its like WOW maybe they didnt choose it, so now i very rarely/never judge people, thats one of the only ways this has helped me. It has sucked the life out of me literally, i dont even feel like me anymore, the old Kyle i knew is long gone i think to myself,
And i wonder will this ever go away .....
I plan to join the marines in a couple years, and i dont know how that experience will be with this going on, i dont know if i have the will power to make it. Peoples thoughts about me really get to me, Like if i did join the marines owuld they know me as the STINKY marine???? or would they think of me as one of them, a normal guy just trying to make it. Sometimes i feel like the gas makes people think i Pooped myself or something, thi is hard because Ive never talked to any of my friends or anything about this...... They know it happens as well as i, but we've just never talked about it, it would be a very awkward and unconfortable moment, But sometimes i jsut want to let them know, "Its only gas guys and something is wrong with my stomach, or better yet my mind......blah...blah...blah" but i can never seem to find the balls to do it.
ANY INPUT AT ALL IS APPRECIATED, ALSO OTHERS THAT SHARE MY STRUGGLE STAY STRONG ITS HARD MAN JUST KEEP ON GIVIN IT ALL.