Please think about how something like that would affect the people who love you. And the Bible tells us that God does not desire anyone to die or be destroyed @ 2 Peter 3:9. It also tells us that if you draw close to him he will draw close to you @ James 4:8. @ Matthew 10:30 it tells us that even the hairs on your head are all numbered. This shows us that Jehovah God loves us and is so interested in us that he even knows how many hairs we have on our head. So, God does care about you. Please pray to him and don't do anything foolish. We would hate to lose you, also.
I totally agree. Call for help right away please!
If you have those doses, don't take them. Could be fatal. If you are concidering this please call the suicide prevention line and check into counselling for suicide prevention.