I lost my mother to cancer on October 4th, 2011. She was an amazing and a brave lady. She battled cancer for almost 2 years. She was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2009 and got diagnosed with rectal cancer and lung cancer, when she was about to end her treatment for the breast cancer. So she had to start the chemotherapy all over again. Which was actually working and she was getting better, but one day she started getting chills, which turned out to be a blood stream infection and it made her weak. The doctors had to hold off chemo for a while because of which her lungs collapsed. She was on ventilator for 4 days and then we had to let her go, because her lungs were not working .I have taken care of her throughout her illness, not as much as my dad did, but I did my part. I was with her when no one could look at her because she was in so much pain.
I miss her, I’ve been having crazy mood swings ever since. I can’t concentrate on anything, I’m a med student and I have finals coming up and I can’t study. I need help. I feel so lost without my mother. How do you cope with losing your parent and your best friend? I need to talk to someone. But I have nobody. I feel like imp all on my own, and the only that can help me is me. But I don’t know how. I tried talking to my friends and husband- who lives in another country- but I feel like they don't understand. Nobody does. I feel like they are eventually going to get sick of me sharing my feeling all the time. So I don't talk about my mom anymore. But I feel like not talking about it is not helping me at all. My husband is not here, would have been different if he was. We don't even get enough time to talk. There’s a huge difference in timings. So I don't know what to do.