If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

[kiddthekatt]

Hello;
   This was sent to me many years ago when I lost my first baby and my Mom 2 months to the day apart.  I thought that my world was oming to an end. I was 18 years old, and I grew up over night. I have no idea who wrote this beautiful poem, but when I am hurting and in pain and I feel so lost without my Mom, I read this and my heart begins to smile.

gentle hugs
Angel  


If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

  
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

  
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

  
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

  
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.

  
When GOD looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today for life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There is no longing for the past.

  
But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven,
And now at last you are free.
So won't you take my hand.
And share my life with me?

  
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we are far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

  

[kiddthekatt]

Good morning;
   Thank you all for your replies. I know how devastating the loss of a loved one can be. I was still grieving the loss of my 5 month old baby girl when my Mom passed. I could not understand what I could have done to deserve losing the 2 most important people in my life. I shut out everyone around me, how could any of them understand? Day by day the pain became more bearable, and when I learned that I was pregnant with my second child, I felt that life was returning to me.

   I lost my Dad on Feb. 1, 1990 and that's when I realized that I was still grieving for my Mom. It took me 17 years to finally go through the grieving process. Today, I have 9 beautiful grand-babies and my life is very full. I still miss my Mom every day, and I still have a hard time on Mother's Day( we buried Mom on Mother's Day) but my siblings and I get together and we talk of our childhoods and laugh about the antics we all got into. And each of the 6 of us can feel her with us when we get together. What a wonderful feeling. Take care.

gentle hugs
Angel

[Judy246]

Very comforting. My mother died in my arms July 19th.  My brother married, a week later my mother died and two weeks before Christmas, his wife miscarried their first child.  I understand your pain and the loss of my mother has changed my life forever.  I will never be the same....I'm a loss soul and I wish I was with her.

Judy

[kipland]

Oh my........, that was nice.  Thank you so much for sharing that.

[Caroline565]

Angel, I too love that poem. How nice of you to share it with us, thanks!

[7preg3b]

wow.  Thats beautiful Thanks for sharing..