FIRST ANGEL-VERSARY

[praying_mom]

I'm grieving today as always, so I don't know how today is any different from all the others.  

Can't believe my son has been gone an entire year already!  This is the year that time stood still for me.  ....seems like yesterday....seems like eternity!

Desperately in need of prayer today!

Jordan's Mom FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Beachwalker33]

I lost my Mom almost a year ago,August 14 2008.I'm having a hard time just knowing its coming up! Your son is in the best place ever heaven! Be happy that your son is not going through what I am going through,what your going through! I'm so sorry for your pain and I will be here for you,if you need me.Thank God that your son went first,as God spared him the pain of life without you.I'm glad my Mom went first,so she wouldn't feel how I do right now! Our loved one's want us happy.I love my Mom more then words can ever say as you do your son.Death leaves you a heartache no one can heal,Love leaves a memory no one can steal! Remember death ends a life,it does not end a relationship.I'm sending you comforting,healing,and understanding vibes.God Bless,Jen P.S.I wish with all my heart and soul that I could take away your pain and replace it with happy memories without sadness and hope for a bright future,your son want's that for his Mom...

[Judy246]

The first year everything is sooo difficult. First birthday, summer, thanksgiving and christmas is heart breaking and I know exactly how you feel. When my mother died, her birthday was right around the corner and I feel apart, but when my birthday came the next month, I went to the cemetary to just visit, but when I got there, I fell on my hands and knees on top of her grave and sobbed and wailed from the depts of my soul.  I sobbed, "mommy, where are you?" over and over...I told her I needed her and it broke my heart that the person that gave birth to me, was no longer with me. The person who gave me life, didn't have hers. How I would have traded my life fro my moms.

I want to tell you something as a daughter without her mother, if roles would have been reversed and I would be the deceased one, it would break my heart to see or hear in spirit my beautiful, beloved mother shead one single tear over me....not me. Your son would not want you suffering at all, but how could we possible not suffer over our hugh, life changing loss. Honor his memory and life by planting beutiful flowers on his grave or dedicate a full mass in his memory....when a person dedicate's a mass for a deceased, that is graces on his soul and a blessing for the person who dedicated it and it will make you feel so good to go to the mass and hear his name being mentioned in front of hundreds of people. Our body's will parish, but the soul lives on forever, so rest easy with the comfort of knowing that one day in God's time and when God will call on you, your precious angel Jordan is going to come running from the gates of heaven and be the guiding light sent by God, to show you the way.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[alicat007]

Oh, I know just how you feel, it feels so bad to have to say its been a year! It has been almost 7 years for me and I cannot believe it! The first 5 yrs I did not even realize it had been that long because it feels like yesterday still! Your mind finally realizes Its true a lot of time has gone by but your heart doesn't accept it all. In your heart, and soul you see it as yesterday and you feel it as just a short while ago because the memories are so still there right up front and alive. I now see girls that remind me of my Lori and how she smiled or her blonde hair and it makes me feel sad that I don't get that moment in time but I also smile because I see Lori and I know she is reminding me she is still in my heart and we still have a connection that time and space cannot break ever!  Around the Holiday's I will get lots of reminders of Lori I will see sunflowers or hear songs that remind me of her. I still hang her stocking and buy her a little Lori gift each Christmas. I lost her on Nov 8th just before my Birthday and Christmas and I walked through the Holiday's like a zombie! But I did it for my son, Austin and myself to prove I could do it. I am just trying to say and show you that time doesn't not take them away from your heart and the memories are forever in your soul...you never forget!  They do come around and let you know they are there with you and they love you in there only little ways. I used to find penny's from Heaven all the time now they come but not as often but the sunflowers are always around me which were her favorite flower!   Jordan will live forever in  your heart, mind, and soul!  Look for the Jordan memories and you will find them, he love's you very much and will be with you forever!    Prayers are with you and Jordan forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    alicat