I agree with Kipland also. you are grieving and possibly depressed. The problem is that you are "stuck" in your grief and are not moving forward and that is a concern. Of course you will have times where you are sad and fall apart (we all do) but you should also be moving on with your life. A grief counselor would be the best thing for you.
Remember, we never forget....we move on but the memories always stay with us. My parents are both gone and there is not a day that goes by that I don't remember them and the things they did and said.....that should and will live with you forever.
However, the grieving should end and then you begin to accept what has happened. Please go speak to someone,,,,,maybe your parents or the counselor at school. Let us know how you are doing...God bless you.
There is nothing wrong with you at all. Please remember that grief has no time table.
I agree with everything kipland told you. I think it would really be benefical to see a counselor. I am seeing one myself and it is so nice to talk to someone who is non-baised.
We are all here to give you a shoulder to lean, believe me I am leaning on a few myself. Take care and know you are not alone.
First off, I'm very sorry that you lost your grandpa. Was this the first major loss in your life? The grieving process can take quite some time to get through - and it's different for everyone. I'm assuming that you were very close to your grandpa? It sounds to me like you have some depression going on. Can you talk to your parents about it? Maybe go see a counselor? Or maybe you need to be on some anti-depressants for a while until you start feeling like yourself again.
You'll never forget about it, but try to keep all the good memories of your grandpa close to your heart. Let us know how you're doing, okay?
Lori