i have no will power to stop :)
I used to joke with people that my second job was quitting smoking. I would try to quit, get down the road a few hours or even a few days and cave. I went for 6 months before I caved the last time I tried. Finally a doctor told me that if I continued to smoke that I would not live to see retirement. I ended up in the hospital after being around a room of smokers up north and I went to breathe and the breath wasnt there! Well since I am now going on 60 and retirement is very near and not being able to forget what it was like to take a breath and it not be there. Yep that did it for sure. I have not had a smoke since New Years Eve and will never smoke again. I decided I really liked breathing more than smoking. Just keep trying and you will eventually succeed. It is different for all of us and yes, it is damned hard at that so dont beat yourself up too bad.
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