Hi Sean,
I think I am hit by the HIV anxiety again. I have engaged in numerous what you will call low to virtually no risk activities, such as massage with happy endings, and on 4 occasions protected oral sex. Recently I am very very worried about my health and I decided to stop engage in these activities because the risk and anxiety are simply not worth it.
A little more details on the activities I engaged in. During the massage with happy endings I have never fingered the workers and the workers never masturbated themselves while giving me the massage. I did kiss one worker for probably 1 minute.
For the protected oral sex, I didn't ejaculate in any of them. The workers always had to remove the condoms and gave me a handjob til completion. Two things really haunt me about these oral exposures. First, I think couple days, maybe only two or three, after the first protected oral exposure, I had a bump on my penis shaft. I think it might be herpes. Second, the third and fourth protected oral happened together. The first oral sex was protected but I wasn't able ejaculate so she went on giving me a unprotected handjob. Then I asked for oral sex again, she used the SAME condom she used for the previous oral sex, it only lasted for a little while because I still wasn't able to ejaculate. So I went to find another prostitute for oral sex. She put on a condom for me but she cleaned off the lubricant outside of the condom. Then we had protected oral sex and then unprotected handjob til I ejaculate. So probably two weeks later, I got a b-scan (type-b ultrasonic) where they put gel on the scanner and move around on your body. Then I went travelling with my family, couple days into the trip, I had these ring rashes that don't itch. They were grown on almost the exact same trail as the b-scan scanner. The thing is today I had another b-scan, and this rash didn't occur at all....I am worried to death doctor. I couldn't sleep and eat. Please advise. Thanks