Well as you all know, I was told by everyone that my incident had zero risk and no testing is necessary. Then I consulted a therapist who re-iterated the same thing and added that I am a hypochondriac. Since the curfew was lifted, I thought of ending this anxiety and to prove everyone was right and I was being irrational, I went and had an HIV antibody rapid test around 10.30 in the morning. The laboratory lady said its an ELISA test and the result would come to my phone after 6.00 p.m. However it is 9.00 p.m already and I still haven't received any message yet.
What does this mean? Are they trying to verify something. Two years ago I got a rapid HIV test from the same place in which the result came very quickly. But today I might be going to sleep without knowing the result. I am freaking out so much now. Am I gonna be that one unlucky chap in 40 years to contract this disease in the most unrealistic way, to be the first ever documented case?
I am sorry if you guys think that I am not listening to your advises. But I am so worried and not sure whether I could get some sleep tonight.
You have been posting in the anxiety and HIV forum for quite sometime now. It was suggested for you to see a therapist, did you see one already?
Perhaps, you are unable to deal with your anxiety and in such situation, an internet forum will be unable to provide the support you are looking for. It is time you make an appointment with a therapist.
We wish you good luck.
Along with these pimple like spots in my chest and arms, I get a weird feeling in my armpits. Its like there's a cut inside the armpit and when I move my hand I get this weird scratching feeling. I haven't felt like that as far as I can remember, at least not this long. It has been like this for 3-4 weeks. I swear I never saw this as a symptom, I don't know if it a symptom at all. I keep hearing my exposure has zero risk but why hasn't these weird symptoms disappeared yet.
It has been 7 weeks since the incident but I'm still feeling anxious even though everyone has said this is a zero risk event and there is no need for testing. I searched the site for similar questions regarding anal fingering and found like 50 posts and for every single one of them, the answer was always it is a no risk event and no need of testing. There were instances where doctors have gone to the extents of saying even if there were cuts in both partners it is still o risk.
I accepted this answer of medical experts and tried to move on. However, there are some weird symptoms that keep pulling me into this nightmare. For more than 2 weeks I am having s slight itchy feeling in my upper body. My arms and chest are very dry, flaky and there are very small pimple like spots all over which normally come due to heat/sweat since I am living in a tropical country (Sri Lanka). I showed it to my mom and she said there is no rash. But today morning I see a dark spot in my lower back near the spine which freaked me out and hence I am posting this. I checked my temperature everyday which was always normal. I don't have any other symptoms like diarrhea, vomiting etc. But this black spot got me back in the anxiety roller coaster.
We are under curfew for at least a couple more weeks, so I cannot go to a hospital to get a blood test. My question is am I still worrying for no reason or do these symptoms mean anything. Just to remind all, my original fear came from the assumption that this massage lady may be HIV+ and she deliberately tried to pick her finger and infect me (which may sound irrational to someone). I am a software engineer so I have to WFH, but I can hardly keep focus while struggling with this nightmare. What should I do? Please help.
I am not sure what kind of Ayurvedic treatment this really is, you are better off not letting any one shoving their finger up your bottom. If you really have pain in your anal area, you should see a doctor for a diagnosis.
This is not an HIV concern unless this other person had a severed finger put up inside your anus. Small cuts and tears are not a risk. Practically, no one is going to deliberately try to infect you, that thought is irrational, if you always bothered with such irrational thinking, please see a therapist.
No risk. Testing is not recommended.
That's irrational to think a woman is purposely set up as a massage therapist and purposely fingering their anus with a cut on their finger to give them HIV because she's herself positive. That's the kind of anxious thinking that if you do that very often, I'd talk to a therapist about it.
Answer to your question is NO. You can not get HIV from what you describe. HIV is transmitted in very specific ways. These include unprotected vaginal or anal intercourse or sharing IV drug needles. That is it. Air inactivates the virus. Any cut on her finger would have been exposed to air. No one has ever gotten HIV from fingering an anus or having their anus fingered. This is not realistic and doesn't happen. You had zero risk and do not need to test.