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Doctor please help me, I have hiv phobia (maybe ocd) I almost insane!!!
Hi, this is my first time in this forum. I have some phobia about hiv. I hope someone can help me.
I live in Bangkok, Thailand. Sorry if my English is not good. I never have sex and never use drug before.
I work in a company which has medical benefits for employees. Last August, the nurse come to inject flu vaccine for everyone. At that time I did not notice the nurst changed needle or not. I afraided maybe she forgot and I was very worried.
Two month later (In October), I had HIV test at HIV clinic (considered as the best hiv research center of the country) The result was negative. But guess what. I was scared the needle and scared of blood so I did not look when the nurse prepare the needle and vacutainer holder. I only remembered that the holder was not in the plastic bag. The nurse picked it up from somewhere and used it on me. So, I am worried again. Moreover, the nurse worked very quickly, I did not see my blood tube after drawing, did not see she disposed the needle. She just told me only "Finished"
After blood test, I asked back to clinic and they said that every equipments was changed, no reused.
One of my friend went to the same clinic last week and he said that the new holder was in the plastic bag. That made me more crazy that the nurse used the old one one me. Worse case, as I mentioned above, I did not see my blood tube after drawing, I also though that is it possible that the nurse did not like me and try to infect me with hiv blood instead of draw blood?
That all of my story, Do you think I am crazy? Do I have OCD? I dont know why I have this phobia in my head. Now, it already 3 months pass since my last blood draw. Should I retest again? I dont know if I go to test again I will relax or not, maybe I will afraid of hiv from blood draw again and again and that make me go to test every 3 months. PLEASE PLEASE answer me
I live in Bangkok, Thailand. Sorry if my English is not good. I never have sex and never use drug before.
I work in a company which has medical benefits for employees. Last August, the nurse come to inject flu vaccine for everyone. At that time I did not notice the nurst changed needle or not. I afraided maybe she forgot and I was very worried.
Two month later (In October), I had HIV test at HIV clinic (considered as the best hiv research center of the country) The result was negative. But guess what. I was scared the needle and scared of blood so I did not look when the nurse prepare the needle and vacutainer holder. I only remembered that the holder was not in the plastic bag. The nurse picked it up from somewhere and used it on me. So, I am worried again. Moreover, the nurse worked very quickly, I did not see my blood tube after drawing, did not see she disposed the needle. She just told me only "Finished"
After blood test, I asked back to clinic and they said that every equipments was changed, no reused.
One of my friend went to the same clinic last week and he said that the new holder was in the plastic bag. That made me more crazy that the nurse used the old one one me. Worse case, as I mentioned above, I did not see my blood tube after drawing, I also though that is it possible that the nurse did not like me and try to infect me with hiv blood instead of draw blood?
That all of my story, Do you think I am crazy? Do I have OCD? I dont know why I have this phobia in my head. Now, it already 3 months pass since my last blood draw. Should I retest again? I dont know if I go to test again I will relax or not, maybe I will afraid of hiv from blood draw again and again and that make me go to test every 3 months. PLEASE PLEASE answer me
Thanks both of you so much for your answers, I know that medical professional never reuse the needle but I afraid something called human error and negligent.
May I have last questions. Have you ever heard that someone in the world infect hiv from draw blood?
May I have last questions. Have you ever heard that someone in the world infect hiv from draw blood?
3 Comments
Seek therapy because you are wasting your life in needless fear.
Ok, In conclusion, I should not go to retest, just move on and go to mental health to get rid of my fear, that's all?
Yes, you are healthy so maybe your doc can convince you or a therapist. Perhaps you can self cure with a book if you like that. There are 5,000 diseases people can get that you don't worry about, so no one has the time to worry all day that you are infected with HIV you can't get.
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I'm not going to say you're crazy - that isn't kind. I do think you have OCD and you need some professional help to get past these irrational fears. It isn't rational to question every move a medical professional, such as a phlebotomist or nurse makes, or wonder if they are incompetent.
You need to find a way to stop this cycle of testing. You should never have tested at all for a re-used needle fear. Professionals DO NOT re-use needles.
You need to find a way to stop this cycle of testing. You should never have tested at all for a re-used needle fear. Professionals DO NOT re-use needles.
The good news is the nurse knows how to do her job, and since you don't have any medical training you need to move on from trying to figure how she does her job. If she was infecting people she would have been caught long ago.
Your problem is not disease, it is fear of disease, so talk to your doctor or a therapist to see if they can calm you down.
Your problem is not disease, it is fear of disease, so talk to your doctor or a therapist to see if they can calm you down.
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