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Going down hill fast
I am going down hill fast. Have not had sex in a long time, but maybe exposure through drug use. Had some personal issues going on, so 3 weeks ago I decided to snort some coke with a roommate, and many other people. I am a family man just going through a bad moment, and have not done anything like this in decades. I did not feel any guilt about it, but after some crazy conversations, I have found out my roommate is manic depressive, and though I do not know for sure, after some conversations, I am pretty sure he is HIV positive..
Moving forward, because I just need to know. I have a family, and I am scared out of my mind that I might of been going through ars around them. There are little ones involved, and I really need to know if I could of somehow infected them through runny noses/changing diapers with out washing hands. I work outside a lot, so my nose runs a lot from dust, and when I blow it, yes there is usually blood. I do get bloody noses, nevertheless, I tend to wipe my nose on sleeve or hand.
Could I have mucus material on my hand than change a diaper, and with diaper rash, infect my kid? What are the chances of that, and how could any parent live with themselves if such a thing happened?
I am freaking out, because 7 days after I played with that damn drug, I broke out in a exema like rash that I have never experienced before in my life. I was under no stress with worry, but while sitting at my computer, my neck seemed to burn, and than started to raise. The next couple days it spread to my forearms up to elbows. It than spread to my legs, but they were single displaced red bumps. The stuff on neck and forearms where and are nasty. At times, very bright red, other times dark purple like. No itch, just ruff sand paper like feeling, and it was as symmetric as can be. That night I got the rash I had some night sweats. Next night, bad night sweats, stiff neck, and the joints in one of my hands really hurt bad. This last for about 3-4 days, than I got very worried and started taking my temperature. It has seemed normal for the past several weeks with 2 degree variations between night and day. My digital thermo reads 95.6 sometimes, and gets as high as 98.2 ( I usually read lower than 98.6) Usually low in morning higher at night. During those three days, my gums became very irritable, and started to bleed.
My nodes are now swollen under my chin, and I am really tired a lot. I am usually a high energy person
The rash, is now just starting to fade at over three weeks. The large blotches are still there, and are pink as can be.
I am freaking out. When I go see my kids now, I wear pants and long shirts. I wash my hands constantly, and am fearful that during the ars, if I have it, I could of passed it on.
I have had 2 oraquick test in the past week. Last night, I got myself so worked up before I took it, that I near collapsed. It came out negative, and so did the one previous(took 5 days ago).
No way no how do I want to worry about this. I am going down hill quick though. The fear that I might of placed my family or me at risk for this virus is terrifying. I have never been so scared in my life.
Go to the doctors and get tested. I know logic, I am just scared, embarrassed, and drunk with all the what ifs?
oraquick test after 22-24 days to exposure? any thoughts?
Any other information would be extremely appreciated.
Thank you
Moving forward, because I just need to know. I have a family, and I am scared out of my mind that I might of been going through ars around them. There are little ones involved, and I really need to know if I could of somehow infected them through runny noses/changing diapers with out washing hands. I work outside a lot, so my nose runs a lot from dust, and when I blow it, yes there is usually blood. I do get bloody noses, nevertheless, I tend to wipe my nose on sleeve or hand.
Could I have mucus material on my hand than change a diaper, and with diaper rash, infect my kid? What are the chances of that, and how could any parent live with themselves if such a thing happened?
I am freaking out, because 7 days after I played with that damn drug, I broke out in a exema like rash that I have never experienced before in my life. I was under no stress with worry, but while sitting at my computer, my neck seemed to burn, and than started to raise. The next couple days it spread to my forearms up to elbows. It than spread to my legs, but they were single displaced red bumps. The stuff on neck and forearms where and are nasty. At times, very bright red, other times dark purple like. No itch, just ruff sand paper like feeling, and it was as symmetric as can be. That night I got the rash I had some night sweats. Next night, bad night sweats, stiff neck, and the joints in one of my hands really hurt bad. This last for about 3-4 days, than I got very worried and started taking my temperature. It has seemed normal for the past several weeks with 2 degree variations between night and day. My digital thermo reads 95.6 sometimes, and gets as high as 98.2 ( I usually read lower than 98.6) Usually low in morning higher at night. During those three days, my gums became very irritable, and started to bleed.
My nodes are now swollen under my chin, and I am really tired a lot. I am usually a high energy person
The rash, is now just starting to fade at over three weeks. The large blotches are still there, and are pink as can be.
I am freaking out. When I go see my kids now, I wear pants and long shirts. I wash my hands constantly, and am fearful that during the ars, if I have it, I could of passed it on.
I have had 2 oraquick test in the past week. Last night, I got myself so worked up before I took it, that I near collapsed. It came out negative, and so did the one previous(took 5 days ago).
No way no how do I want to worry about this. I am going down hill quick though. The fear that I might of placed my family or me at risk for this virus is terrifying. I have never been so scared in my life.
Go to the doctors and get tested. I know logic, I am just scared, embarrassed, and drunk with all the what ifs?
oraquick test after 22-24 days to exposure? any thoughts?
Any other information would be extremely appreciated.
Thank you
Symptoms have cleared up.
Let me point out.
First three days rash started I had Nearly every ars symptom--except high fever. Maybe low grade, couple of degrees above my normal temp.
Night sweats, sore throat, inflamed throat, some joint pain, stiff neck, loss of appetite, and sever lethargy. The lethargy and rash lasted 4 weeks however, while everything else subsided. Horrible HSV breakout.
The rash was the most prominent feature however. My arms still bear pinks scars that are fading, but the rash covered my arms neck and legs. I looked anemic, as non of my leg scratches healed but got super red and infected.
Hot showers and working outside made it worse. No none of them itched. The bad blotches finally faded but did flake some.
I just bought another HIV oral test, and it has been near 6 weeks exposure.
Should this give me a good idea of my status? I know 3 months for definite answer, but just wanted to know what you all thought.
Teak, your post about oral, or air exposed HIV is encouraging, however, things happen, as we live in a world of probability and not absolutes!!!
getting ready to take some anxiety relief, and see what this test shows. I have to many people counting on me in my life to end it short, but I must wonder how many hiv + people don't get so depressed that they take their own lives. Many years, as I had a scare a decade ago, I read Dr. Bob's post. He was so positive about life, how you get HIV, and how people live long lives with it. WTF....I go to check him out after some time, and he has passed.
Teak, you have lived a long time with the virus, but I also read a thread of yours that "I think" described how you got HIV, and it seemed like a way that you would claim would not be possible? I do not understand all the contradictions.
Last word, there is no way in hell, with the type of rash I experienced, that I am not HIV positive. I would give so much to be wrong, but it was just so obvious. Nothing like the many silly questions asked on these forums. My flipping toenails even turned what look like black for a couple days.
I got married for love and to be with only one person, I made bad choice in who I picked for a mate, but my kids are wonderful, and to think I wont be able to walk my little girl down the isle causes me to not even want to get out of bed in the morning, afternoon, evening.
I am well of aware of the law, no I am not going to hurt myself or anyone else, but feeling like never waking up again seems more and more like a positive thought. Guess, I will update my results here in a little bit.
Let me point out.
First three days rash started I had Nearly every ars symptom--except high fever. Maybe low grade, couple of degrees above my normal temp.
Night sweats, sore throat, inflamed throat, some joint pain, stiff neck, loss of appetite, and sever lethargy. The lethargy and rash lasted 4 weeks however, while everything else subsided. Horrible HSV breakout.
The rash was the most prominent feature however. My arms still bear pinks scars that are fading, but the rash covered my arms neck and legs. I looked anemic, as non of my leg scratches healed but got super red and infected.
Hot showers and working outside made it worse. No none of them itched. The bad blotches finally faded but did flake some.
I just bought another HIV oral test, and it has been near 6 weeks exposure.
Should this give me a good idea of my status? I know 3 months for definite answer, but just wanted to know what you all thought.
Teak, your post about oral, or air exposed HIV is encouraging, however, things happen, as we live in a world of probability and not absolutes!!!
getting ready to take some anxiety relief, and see what this test shows. I have to many people counting on me in my life to end it short, but I must wonder how many hiv + people don't get so depressed that they take their own lives. Many years, as I had a scare a decade ago, I read Dr. Bob's post. He was so positive about life, how you get HIV, and how people live long lives with it. WTF....I go to check him out after some time, and he has passed.
Teak, you have lived a long time with the virus, but I also read a thread of yours that "I think" described how you got HIV, and it seemed like a way that you would claim would not be possible? I do not understand all the contradictions.
Last word, there is no way in hell, with the type of rash I experienced, that I am not HIV positive. I would give so much to be wrong, but it was just so obvious. Nothing like the many silly questions asked on these forums. My flipping toenails even turned what look like black for a couple days.
I got married for love and to be with only one person, I made bad choice in who I picked for a mate, but my kids are wonderful, and to think I wont be able to walk my little girl down the isle causes me to not even want to get out of bed in the morning, afternoon, evening.
I am well of aware of the law, no I am not going to hurt myself or anyone else, but feeling like never waking up again seems more and more like a positive thought. Guess, I will update my results here in a little bit.
"oraquick test after 22-24 days to exposure? any thoughts? "
At 22-24 days it's meaningless because,
a.) it's way too early and
b.) you should not be worried about HIV and I agree with what "teak" said.
Hepatitis is definitely a possibility and if I were you I would see a doctor .
At 22-24 days it's meaningless because,
a.) it's way too early and
b.) you should not be worried about HIV and I agree with what "teak" said.
Hepatitis is definitely a possibility and if I were you I would see a doctor .
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