Same here - this post is amazing!!
Thank you for this post. Really help me. I had my test last year and it came back as ngative. But im still paranoid as f. I get so f nervous and i feel like crying bcs i feel like my is over. This paranoid is taking over my life. I thought im the only person who feel this way so i feel scared to share my feelings with others which make it worst bcs i dnt have anybody to talk to. But seeing your post really help me. Thank you so much.
Thanks for this post, i've had a "risk" 9 months ago, protected vaginal sex and i drank breast milk from a female CSW from her nipples. I'm scared yet, but i did the HIV antibodies tests at 55, 125 and 146 days later (unknown generation), all negatives.
I had all symptoms of ARS, i don't know if i need another test but i want leave pass this nightmare.
Thanks and good luck everyone.
Very good self analysis. I had gone through the same situation since last 4 months. I have spoiled 4 months of my life. But I should have use latex for safe sex. Now I will never do unprotected sex. Imagination can ruin your life.
Thanx a lot again.
How are you going now? I didn’t even think about aids, not sure why but when I was sexually assulted I was paranoid of hpv. I think I have it, it’s been 8 months and it has been confirmed I have high risk hpv now. The doctors keep saying no warts but I think I do have warts show up now. I cry and have almost panic attacks because I feel so diseased. Yep I’m getting councilling, seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist and started taking meds because I hated being in my body so much I wanted to kill myself. I still feel uncomfortable every day but haven’t tried to kill myself yet. I have kids so I want to be strong for them but I’m a mess. I went to sexual health clinic and they said the new growths are vaginal papules-normal. Wtf are these and why now. They assured me they wouldn’t be from the assult but my vagina has never felt like this in my life and I never had these so called papules before. So anyway I’m booked into see a derm who specialises in skin diseases etc so I’m hoping see can confirm if it is papules or warts. My aids tests and all other tests besides high risk hpv came back neg. I’m still terrified though that they are warts, there’s no test for warts and all the symptoms lead to warts unless it’s just my mind :(
Oh wow maybe I need to man up and get tested too, I'm silently dying inside.
It has been 3 years since you had anxiety. How are you doing now? Do you get better and the symptoms disappear??
I've the same anxiety from past 3 months. I test negative at 4 weeks and 11 weeks recently due to an oral incident which everyone here says no risk. But I somehow feel uneasy due to stomach problems and will test again after 2 weeks just to be sure. I hope they find a vaccine for this soon. Life is hell with anxiety.
Going through the same thing now. This forum and another forum said that I had no risk, but now everything on my body is hurting and my mind is going 100mph trying to cope.(see post: possible contact with pre seminal fluid may16) May spend large amounts of money for test to ease my mind.
I took a test at 15 weeks time but hadn't made sure of the needle they used at a reputed hospital and I got paranoid for the next 4 months thinking the nurse might have infected me with a dirty needle. Took a test at 17 weeks after that but still not convinced. Rational mind just doesn't work
5 years, wow! Well, I guess you handled it better than I did. 5 years would have driven me crazy. I couldn't drink, because all the anxiety was giving me serious headaches after drinking. Glad you got your life back on track.
And yes I will always wear protection.... thanks for sharing - I feel like I have a twin who suffered the same pain....
Dude, I have suffered for 5 years and only just took the test, I was also thinking I had everything.. I turned to booze badly, very bad ... and can hardly remember many of these years, I'm now confident of the tests I took (I live in a high risk environment, Thai, PHY..etc) - Im single and love to be with females, but know the precautions to take now... and look forward to being with girls again... look at my post..
Also think I'm so "special" that I might be one who shows antibodies late, ahahah, never had luck with the lottery so I don't know why I think this. Even convinced myself that I might have lupus because I got canker soars and was treated for h y pylori a while back. No doubt I have a case of OCD going on too, hypochondriac at the same time. The best advice I can give, is accept who you are and don't think you're crazy. I had all these thought before, I just channeled them to my benefit, thought of work and relationship, not HIV. Best Wishes to all anxiety, paranoid HIV symptom shoppers. Hope I helped you...
I also had dry mouth, and still do. In case some of you experienced that. I tested for a full blood panel, white blood, protein, vitamins, HEP C, Syphillis, Gon/Clam, everything you can think of, all clean. I tested with BioRad, ClearView, OraQuick, RNA/PCR, and last one, ClearView again at 20 weeks. In case knowledgeable counselors here want to add their own thoughts. Oh, all blood drawn from my vein, and one nurse even hit a nerve, making my right hand almost useless for a weak, spasm did me worse. White hair, sensitivity to light(probably because of looking at monitor for too long). My anxiety started when a clinic worker stated, and I quote "I hate to tell you this" right before he read my results -"But I don't think I got enough blood from you." Bad choice of words, haunting me until today.