seek therapy & get that test done.
If you have a wife/girlfriend at home plus a family, that should be enough incentive to make you stop this risky behavior. I'm not trying to make you feel bad but like the other person stated you are putting others at risk. You need to get tested immediately and if you want conclusive resluts now, take the HIV DNA PCR or P24 Antigen test. It is costly but so is losing your family.
You right i feel terrible I am suffering so much with this I am stupid. I really need help!
If your inprotected exposure was 2 months ago then you should have tested.You need to put your family first & stop this reckless behaviour--how would you feel if you infected your GF/wife.Also Bi-sexuals and IV drug users were the groups that spread HIV to the hetrosexual community to begin with.