HIV possibilities?

[Readyforresolution]

I'm a white 33 year old female who had unprotected vaginal sex with a then 34 year old male. He is from Spain but was borned and raised in the US. Not sure if he would be categorized a minority or not. We did not use a condom. He has since dated one of my 'once upon a time' close friends for 3 years afterwards. They both have claimed 'clean' to me several times. Needless to say my friendship has deteriorated. This has been eating at me for 5 years. I've had pap smears and even a LEEP procedure since this happened but have never asked for HIV testing. This has become an obsession of sorts. It's been eating me for 5 years to the point to where I have not dated at all. I know this is unhealthy and I'm ready to get it over with. I found this forum in hopes of a little light. I'm not sure I'll survive the 'testing day' until the 'results day' but I can't live this way any longer. I'm absolutely humiliated and scared to ask for the test but I'm going to do it this week. I don't know if he's a needle user or bisexual. He claims no to both but I'm finding my trust in just not there for anything anymore.

[Peter1983]

Rapid test - Anonyimous - get the result... and move one
You are a scared person with, most probably, no reason for that at all.

[avonelle38]

There is no need to delay this any longer and keep torturing yourself over what ifs. Additionally, you no longer have to get a standard lab test and then wait up to weeks for your results. They have rapid tests that give results in 20 minutes and they are just as reliable as a standard ELISA test. Go ask for one. There is nothing humiliating about it whatsoever. You are taking responsibility for your health. Good luck!

[anxiousashell190]

well the best way to know ur status is testing u could have done it 4 years and 9 months back in which i mean 3 months prior to the unprotected sex and u would have knew it i wish u the best with ur results