Hiv scared

[jj4help]

Hi, I am confused about what is and is not a risk for hiv when it comes to oral sex, especially for male/male activitys. I had a few exposures about 2.5 yrs ago. One was mutual oral/ precum but no ejaculating during. The other 2 were guys giving me oral but I didn’t ejaculate in their mouth.

Like 6 months after the mutual I had got minor shingles about the size of a dime on my left shoulder blade. I still get sharp pains from it once in a while but no sores. Also I’m pretty sure I have hsv 1 genital from the oral. I get sharp pain on my left buttcheek but not much of a sore just a bump or 2 like folliculitus. Not confirmed on hsv. I had a lot of symptoms, sore throats, small bumps on my face for a day or so, body aches, fatigue and others.

I’m really afraid that all this adds up to hiv. It can only be from oral, I never had any intercourse. Please, I’m so freaked out that I’m positive from those exposures. I’ve not had any sexual encounters since and it’s ruining my self confidence, making me depressed and just sad.

[AnxiousNoMore]

This answers all of your HIV questions, and if you can think of any more just reread about the 3. You had zero risk therefore  testing is irrelevant to your situation because you had zero risk. HIV is a fragile virus, which is instantly inactivated in air and also in saliva which means it is effectively dead so it can't infect from touching, external rubbing or oral activities. It doesn't matter if you and they were actively bleeding or had cuts at the time either because the HIV is effectively dead.  
Only 3 adult risks are the following:
1. unprotected penetrating vaginal with a penis
2. unprotected penetrating anal sex with a penis
3. sharing needles that you inject with.
The only way to get HIV is if you did one of the 3. The situation you describe is a long way from any of these 3.
Even with blood, lactation, cuts, rashes, burns, etc the air or the saliva does not allow inactivated virus to infect from touching, external rubbing or oral activities. Doctors have calculated the risk from what you describe to be less than that of being hit by a meteor, therefore no one will get HIV from what you did in the next 40 years of your life either. The above HIV science is 40 years old and very well established, so no detail that you can add to your encounter will change it from zero risk.
Your self diagnosis of hiv is incorrect which is not surprising since you don't have any medical training. Move on and enjoy your life instead of being depressed over your guess-diagnosis.

[jj4help]

Thx for answering so fast, would my possible hsv1 genital (never any sores on my dick) affect possible hiv infection from oral? Or if one of the guys had his semen on his hands when jerking me? I’m super terrified to get tested. I read shingles means hiv positive is very likely and I got the symptoms and then shingles a few months after.

[Chima7]

Shingles are highly contagious and easy to catch from being out in public places.  In adults, it can flare up in anyone who was previously infected with chicken pox at any time. It can also flare up during times of extreme stress. The HIV/shingles connection is not a concern for you because as ANM already explained to you, you had NO risk, as in, you were never exposed to HIV from what you described.