Reread what you were advised.
Teak / Hangon51,
Thank you for your feedback. To clarify, the condom was covered in lube/anus mucus I didn't notice any blood but I've read anus mucus contains the most HIV virus so when I grabbed the condom my hand became covered in it then transferred to my penis.
I understand what you are saying about no transfer outside of host, but then people get HIV from needle pricks, that is technically outside of host too?
There was no kissing at all, I just received oral and then topped. If I didn't have so many ARS type of symptoms arrive within 11 days I wouldn't be too worried but naturally I'm concerned.
HIV is unable to reproduce outside its living host (unlike many bacteria or fungi, which may do so under suitable conditions), except under laboratory conditions; therefore, it does not spread or maintain infectiousness outside its host.
HIV is transmitted by;
Unprotected penetrative anal and/or vaginal sex
Sharing works with other IV drug users
Mother to child
" I grabbed the condom with my hand and then also grabbed my penis...so basically it seems like I may have potentially transmitted HIV to myself by doing this.'
Well "basically" you're a bit overanxious. HIV cannot be transmitted that way. Not even "potentially" or "theoretically" for that matter.