Last night, I went home with a bartender in a drunken frenzy and the events that occurred after has left me feeling guilty and fearful. Here is the story. Keep in mind I am a 31 year old male and she is a 29 year old female.
We were passionately french kissing in the living room and then I lifted her up and we went straight into her room. I pulled her pants down, took my pants off, and kept kissing. The moment I found myself erect, I put the condom on and went into her, but I immediately suffered "whisky ****" and went flaccid. The condom was still on but halfway down my penis and I took my penis out of her vagina and took the condom off.
We then proceeded to the living room and we started making out heavy again. I started getting somewhat erect and we started rubbing our privates together. At one point i felt like I was in her because it felt good but looked down and my penis was just scraping the side of her vagina (I was not in her but it felt like I was) then I believe I put the condom on and immediately suffered "whisky **** again" and just proceeded to make out and rub on each other.
We then stood up and went to the kitchen we were both completely naked and we started dancing in the kitchen. I went behind her and started grinding against her *** and my **** was scraping her crack and vagina from the back. Yet again I don't believe I went in her we were just standing up and i was just grinding hard against her backside (it felt good) but I did not believe I entered her. I would momentarily rub my penis to see if it was wet or moist but it felt dry.
We then tried 2 more times to have sex but my penis just went flaccid so we frottaged around before I eventually passsed out. I woke up this morning and tried to have sex with her again but couldnt get it in, at one point the condom was off but i still couldnt get my prnis in her because I kept going soft so quickly. I guess I was just scared and paranoid.
I am worried that maybe sometime last night my penis did enter her slightly but due to my drunk frenzy I don't remember. There were condoms all over the house this morning of my failed attempts to have sex..(i did once with the condom on) but what are my risks of HIV?
I am just scared that maybe the frottaging caused a momentary penetration that I am not aware of in my drunken state. I asked her this morning if we had safe sex and she said yes that we were safe. I do believe that because I remember, but what about the other hazy rubbings?
Should I get tested? Am I of a high risk of getting HIV? im SO SCARED