So I'm back. Today i was diagnosed with what the doctor thought was 'maybe' shingles. A rash on my ack that is not painful, has not blistered, but the pattern reminded her of the manifestation of shingles.
Anyhow, I have been married for 2 1/2 years and have only had sex with my wife in the last 4 years. I only recently became concerned with HIV and paranoia, so i've taken a few oraquick tests at home (mouth swab).
I have taken 4 including today. October, November, January and now today. The first two I didn't feel as though I properly followed the instructions, however the January and today tests I took my time, followed every instruction, and got a clear Control line and no T line, showing a negative result.
My concern is that I continue to worry every time a new medical issue pops up, and I just want to get this concern out of my head...
Can I trust these tests? I continue to worry that if they cannot be relied upon, I may give something to my wife or if we try to have a child, to the child too.
Can I move on from this?
I really recommend seeing a mental health professional about your irrational worries about HIV.