Please help, I am going out of my mind with worry. I made a stupid mistake.
I am a straight guy who experimented a couple of times with a friend (also male, straight, have known for years).
The first time we did anything was about October 2005. We had some oral sex (both giving and receiving) and we then tried anal sex (with a condom). However, at the beginning, I gave him oral for about 30 seconds, I dont think there was any pre-*** as we had just started and couldn't taste anything. I then stupidly used my saliva to lubricate the condom he had on before it was inserted in me. We stopped after about 20-30 seconds cause I didn't like it and it hurt like mad.
Since that time we have only now and then, done oral sex on each other (unprotected), without ejaculation most of the time apart from one time more recently when I did take a little *** in my mouth. I didn't have any oral ulceration or cuts, although I did bite my tongue about 3 days previously which was a little achy still but not open wound.
After the first encounter we had when we had anal sex, a day or 2 later, I had quite bad anal itching which persisted for about 2 weeks then went away. About April/May 2006 I started to get aching lymph nodes, which did get quite painful at times. I could feel shotty lymph nodes in my inguinal and femoral region.
I went for std tests and was told I had NGU, which was then treated.
Over the next few months after becoming increasingly more paranoid, I started to feel around and could feel more lymph nodes.
Not long ago, my doctor confirmed that I do have shotty lymph nodes in the groin, axillary, supraclavicular, cervical and under the angle of the chin the ones under the angle of the chin are larger (about 1.5cm-2). I only seem to have shotty cervical and supraclavicular nodes on the left side of my neck. The aching has more or less gone apart from sometimes feeling like a trapped nerve when walking. CBC was normal.
I'm so worried and depressed right now, would really appreciate your help.
Thank you