I new the test was a little bit to early, So then exatcly a week later on april 3 I was playing again and at halftime I noticed I was cut on my pinky and it was bleeding. I washed it off then I put a bandaid on it then went back to the game. After the game when I was home I noticed a small drop of blood on my jersey on the side where my hip is at and of course I freaked out and said what if that blood was somebody elses and what if it got into my cut. Im tired of worrying about this stuff all the time and according to you guys im worrying totally over nothing. I just wanna get back to my life and know that I am totally healthy as far as HIV goes. Its hard not to worry about it when I am a natural worrier as someone once told me. Its like I can take evryones advice and tell myself I was in no risk but its like I just dont believe it.
If that's the root cause of your fears, as suggested by the others you should really see a counselor to get over your irrational fears because it seems that that you have developed a phobia, 'HIV phobia' and it's very necessary to eliminate it from your mind as it seems that you relate it to many day to day occurances, seeing a good counselor and strong determination would definitely help
You would also have to understand that a counselor can only show you the way but it's YOU who has to be STRONG enough from the within to tell your self that "I can't acquire the virus until and unless I indulge my self into high risk situations like unprotected vaginal / anal, share needles, unscreened blood transfusion etc" only