Truly desperate: Am I at risk!?

[TwoToGo]

Dear Community,

please help me. I can hardly eat or sleep. I have not felt this bad in my entire life.


I am a predominantly heterosexual male in a committed relationship with a girl I plan to marry.

Last week I went to a local swimming pool. After I was done, I headed to the showers and a gay man approached me. I suddenly found myself in a situation where we were masturbating each other. At one point he rubbed our penisses together for a few seconds. We then continued masturbating each other until we both ejaculated. I got his semen on my hand and forearm...

I was deeply disturbed after the incident and through up minutes later. Ever since I've been worrying about having contracted an STD of some sort. I have read that there was virtually no risk of contracting HIV, but can I be sure? What about other STDs? I am worried about losing my girlfriend or even worse, giving her an STD. I haven't slept with her since because I am so afraid. I am afraid of losing her, if I tell her what happened.

Please. I am truly desperate. I will never do anything like this again!

Should I get tested!?

[Vance2335]

The risk was not very low, it was no risk.

[MsAnxiety2012]

I understand how you feel. I fooled around with a man about three years ago while I was in a relationship and he ejaculated on me getting it on my chest. Till this day I still worry about me having HPV from his sperm that got in me. I've read in multiple forums that it's a skin to skin STD and that there's no risk because it's INTACT skin, but I still worry. I've been STD tested, I even went as far as getting blood drawn last week to see if I got HSV2, and I'm clean! I think the guilt is what makes it worse and these forums. I'm trying to relax about it but I know exactly how you feel. Anyone else have any input in this?

[TwoToGo]

Thank you for your reply. It's good to hear from someone who understands. The guilt is crushing me. Everything else is hopefully just paranoia... THe risks were very low after all. But until I can get tested, the doubt
will remain.

[TwoToGo]

I am still worried... Any more advice from anyone?

[AlbertLinares]

Mutual masturbation its a safe sex practice, not a risk for HIV at all, as for another STD's I think the risks are only theorical, I would not worry.

[TwoToGo]

Thank you for your reply, Albert. I am mostly worried about the skin-to-skin contact, when he rubbed our genitals together...and I did come into contact with semen, which worries me. Even though I didn't have any visible cuts or bruises...