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Very scared right now...Need help ASAP.

I'm an idiot.

I messed up.

I hooked up with another man. I just wanted oral. That's all I wanted. But then he sat on my penis and I lost my virginity unintentionally with a stranger who was 45 when I'm only 19.

Now I'm scared. He didn't use a condom. He swears he's negative, but what if he lied? What if I get HIV? I'm so scared.

Someone help me. There was no blood. There was feces on my penis after it ended, which repulsed me to no end.

He says he's negative and I was only in for like 2 or 3 minutes tops. I'm so scared. I don't wanna die. I didn't want to lose my virginity. I said I was cumming and he didn't let me pull out. Most of the cum was on my penis I think, though. It's all kinda blurry.

I never want to have sex with another man again.

Sorry for the explicit text. I got on PEP but I'm still worried it won't work or will just prolong my diagnosis. I messed up and I would give anything to take back what I did.
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So you had unprotected anal sex? Then you had a risk and a DUO test at 28 days would be very good to take.
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Okay. Will do. Thank you.
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Hi Vance,

You say "would be very good to take". Do you still agree that at and after 28 days it would be conclusive or did your opinion slightly change lately?
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Are there any doctors on who can help?
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If you're on nPEP, then you're going to have to wait about 4 weeks after finishing that up to do a DUO test that will be conclusive.

How long after the encounter did you start the nPEP?  
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Oh I missed that part my bad! Thanks for the clarification!
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I started the nPEP a day after the encounter.
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I'm so scared
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I know I shouldn't panic but I'm freaking out
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a day after it is normal. usually pep is started within 72 hours.
480448 tn?1426948538
The best thing you could do is to get yourself engaged in life....keep yourself distracted.  The very worst thing you could do is sit around and think about this.
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