got all the symtoms, only risk is insertive oral sex, deeply sad.

[jasonville]

I Just wanna share my stories and a couple of questions to ask.
Really appreciate if you can spent time reading this, sorry quite a long story.
Im a Guy from Malaysia.
My exposure was on the 14th Jan. I went to massage center and after done massaging the girl ask me to have sex with her. I said NO! because no CONDOM, I dont wanna put my self in to a RISK. I am aware of HIV. But then she want to do blow job to me. from the info I got from the web, insertive oral sex was not a RISK. The blow job only last for TWO MINUTE then I ask her to hand job. after the event, she ask me again to have sex at her place but this time she insist, I just say no then went away. I felt something was not right when she ask me to have sex with her.
I started to felt a little bit worry after the event then I started Googling, I started to panic when I read Oral sex is a possible but extremely low risk. Then it relief me a little bit, but two weeks after the encounter guess what, I started to felt sore throat,and flu with runny nose, it last for two days after I took some medicine then it goes away, the following day I started to get fever and felt hurt at my lymp nodes all over my body, neck,chest,stomach,groin,and arm pit with lower back and joint pain, started that day my worse fear seems to come true. The symptoms was getting worse from day to day, I got red spot, pink blotches, and rashes at my chest, back, face and arm. my whole body itch and my skin easily become red even with gentle scratch, I got night sweats which occur almost every nights, my fever and body aches last for two weeks but in between that, I meet a doctor and explain my symptoms to him  but I did not mentioned him I got possible risk of HIV, he suspect me got viral or bacterial infection. He gave me antibiotic injection but no difference at all. my fever and body aches and nodes getting worse. I come back again 1 week after I meet the doctor, then he suspect me got dengue. Guess what, the dengue blood test was NEGATIVE. What else I could think of beside HIV. I determined to get tested 5 weeks after my encounter, I went to government hospitals and test using approved home rapid test kit, the result was NEGATIVE, but I didnt relief at all. I ask my blood to be taken and do an ELISA test but he say the result will come NEG. I assume that I still in window period. The most terrible thing is, I got a wife and we had unprotected sex before my symptoms occur, She also got the symptoms like sore throat, yeast infection, rash, red spots same with mine which I never seen before until my illness appear. She also complaining that she always got headache and severe back pain especially right after she woke up. She never had fever. from the symptoms alone I am totally convince Me and my wife got HIV. I got more severe symptoms maybe due to my anxiety and stress. She totally does not know what happen. Until today it has been 58 days since the exposure, I still felt my nodes at my groin and neck still hurt a little bit, night sweats, lower back pain especially right after I woke up, Itchy skin, rashes sometimes appear on my chest and I felt a burning sensation on my skin starting from the neck, chest and arms. I am in deeply sad and guilty, maybe I have infected my love ones, Every day I cried like a child when Im alone, I just could not accept the fact that my innocence wife got infected due to my WRONG doing. I just planning to kill my self if I am positive because I could not bare to see my wife getting hurt for the rest of her life because of ME. Sometime I felt like the girl at the massage center intentionally want to infect me and if I confirm HIV positive, she gonna pay all of this. Yesterday on the 8th MARCH (57 days) I tested again using an approved rapid test kit the result is still NEG. Now all I have to do is WAITING for 3 moths for my next test its killing me. I will keep on posting my results.
My questions is how reliable the home test kit after 57 days post exposure?
What is your opinion about this? Do I have HIV?

Many thanks

[jasonville]

Hi Teak,

Can you please delete this thread?
It is for privacy purposes.

Thanks.

[jasonville]

thanks for the articles, but from the 1st paragraph means, IF I am really infected (waiting for another 3 month test), does it means no one would belief me that my risk is only oral sex?
How reliable is my results using home test kit after 57 days?

[LIZZIE LOU]

There is no debate (among experts) about the HIV risks associated with oral sex.  The risk is so low that almost nobody who cares for HIV infected patients has ever had a patient believed to have been infected that way.  Among experts, it's a semantic issue about using terms like "no risk" and "very low risk".  There is no difference between my or Dr. Hook's use of "low risk" and other experts' "no risk".
DR. HANSFIELD

"And oral sex is basically safe sex -- completely safe with respect to HIV and although not zero risk for other STDs, the chance of infection is far lower than for unprotected vaginal or anal sex.  Please educate yourself about the real risks.  If you stick with oral sex and condom-protected vaginal or anal sex, you have no HIV worries and very little worry about other STDs. "   DR HANSFIELD

"I am sure you can find lots of people who belive that HIV is transmitted by oral sex, but you will not find scientific data to support this unrealistic concern..."   DR HOOK

"HIV is not spread by touching, masturbation, oral sex or condom protected sex."- DR. HOOK

in the public HIV Prevention forum of MedHelp, TEAK and the other moderators maintain that oral sex in all forms is a zero risk activity. Would you agree with this assessment?  
I TOTALLY AGREE / DR GARCIA

The observation on thousand and thousand of observations is that HIV is not spread by oral sex (of any sort).  DR. HOOK