There are no doctors here anymore.
If you didn't penetrate then there is no risk, since HIV is inactivated outside the human body and with saliva, otherwise there would be a lot of infected babies who got kissed by someone who didn't even know they had it.
Your symptoms are in your head from fear making you over-analyze your body looking for clues that you are dying. The rash coming and going is a good example, so since you can't have HIV, hopefully you can relax and forget the "symptoms: and they will disappear or you will forget them like you used to do whenever a rash appeared.