phobia of hiv

[worriedgirl335]

I have anxiety and a really big phobia of HIV. Mostly I think of scary stuff and then I'm anxious and then convinced the actual scary thought happened. Yesterday I cut my finger on the sharp edge of a shoe box at the store. It sliced my finger almost like a paper cut and started to bleed. I left the store and sat in my car debating on whether I could go in the next store with my bloody finger. I did not have anything to wipe it off with but I figured I could run to the next store real quick but just don't let anything touch that hand with the bloody finger. So about 5 min later I was up at the register letting the lady ring me up and I was examining her hands to make sure she wasn't bleeding. So I was using my opposite hand when handing stuff to her. I didn't notice any blood or cuts on her hand but I'm nervous that maybe she bumped into my bloody finger and I'm thinking what if she was bleeding and her blood touched my actively bleeding cut. My cut was just onmy finger with blood just bubbled there almost as if the blood was starting to dry on my cut because I never wiped it. When I got home I rinsed it under water and the blood didn't rinse right off because it was sort of dried on there so I had to rub it off. Anyway my worry is what if she happened to nudge my bloody finger with an actively bleeding cut of hers and what if she had hiv and now im infected. Can you tell me if I should be worried? Can you tell me if thats even possible of getting hiv that way? Im so sick to my stomach part of me knows that my finger never came in contact with her and that she wasnt even bleeding and then my ocd phobia tells me she was and she touched me and her blood got in mine and now im infected and have to wait 6 months to know if i am or not. I am so sick of getting tested as I have no need to I am i  a relationship, dont use drugs and I shouldnt need to run and get tested for hiv everytime something like this happens to me. Im just so sick to my stomach from anxiety. can someone please tell me if i should be worried about this? thanks in advance for your help.

[worriedgirl335]

thanks appreciate your reply. i really hope im worrying over nothing. im really scared

[hangon51]

Your concerns are not realistic.
I wouldn't  normally comment on your post but the length and detail of your alleged "exposure" tells me that you're genuinely upset.
My opinion cannot possibly be more relevant than what "teak" told you in his usual pithy and succinct style.
I've underwent a two month crash course on HIV infection and testing...HIV wasn't even on my radar screen before that......until my possible/imagined exposure.
The doc attending my concern took extraordinary measures in explaining to me how HIV is contracted and how it is not. Must not have been a busy day at emerg....
If HIV was as infectious as you fear it to be, 90% of the world population would be infected.
Read up on it.
You're worrying over  nothing.

[worriedgirl335]

thanks for your reply. can you explain why its not an hiv concern? I just was wondering why not from your opinion. thank you!