Hi Jean,
Sorry for taking so long to reply. In answer to your questions, did I ever find myself totally focused on my heart....oh my goodness yes.....each and every little feeling. I started out with the fast heart rate at odd times, it would wake me out of a deep sleep sometimes going as fast as 180 bpm. The fear that I added to the situation I grew to learn made it beat even faster. The sweat would be pouring off my face and down my chest. Even my feet would sweat. I could feel my heart pounding in my neck and ears. There I would be sitting in the dark feeling for my pulse, scaring myself silly. Once I calmed down and my heart rate slowed down then I would begin to get cold....teeth chattering cold and I would shake. I would have to put socks on, and sometimes I would drink warm water to get warm. Once I went to the doctor and learned I had Parasoxymal Artial Tachycardia (PAT's) I was still scared when it happened..but I also learned to talk to myself. Strange thing is, it mostly happened at night. Sometimes it happened while I was sitting in a hot tub, or taking a shower. Talk about getting out fast. Sometimes I prayed I'd get the soap washed out of my hair fast enough to get out. I began being afraid of being home alone. The extra fear that I added created more adrenaline which made it beat faster and for longer periods of time. It was when I learned to think positively, and it didn't happen overnight. I admit, it was hard work...but I knew that it had to be me and that I had to change my thinking....I actually got to the place where I would wake up, it would be beating fast and I'd acknowledge it...and think, well I'll wait and see what happens. Getting up and splashing cold water on your face helps, or taking a cold washcloth back to bed. It still happens once in a great while, it scares me...but not all consuming. I believe now that everything I experince now may be due to peri-menopause. I always heard this age (45) was supposed to be the best time of your life. I'm not sure. Try staying focused.....of course your focused on your fast heart rate, but focused on the positives.....it will get better if you try.....giving those what-if's is not good. MLS
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I'm glad to see that you said you are starting to think positive and that when your heart races that it doesn't last as long, only 2-3 minutes. It has only been a week since you've started trying to think more positive. PLEASE don't be so hard on yourself. They say, and I've read many places and many times throughout the years that in when you are trying to start something new, such as think positive, quit smoking, change your eating habits, etc. that it begans to get easier after the 23rd day - if you try to be consistent. After being afraid for two years or so it is bound to take longer. Your body is sensitized to your thoughts, when you begin to think it is not going to work, repeat some of the things you've read above, over and over if you have to...give yourself time. Try reading Claire Weekes books again...she explains wonderfully. Best of luck.MLS
Hi again,
I have been trying to take everyones advice and think positive. I am still having the episodes where my heart starts to race but they seem to not last as long only 2-3 minutes and then it passes. I am having a hard time with the mornings. I can feel great the night before and then as soon as I wake up it starts all over again. Does anyone else feel this way? Also I cant seem to stop focusing on my heart, even when it is slow like 79 BPM I find myself thinking about it because I am hoping that it wont start to race again.I guess I cant shake the fear of it. Anyone have any suggestions on how to deal with this? I guess it is anticipatory anxiety over my heart rate. Thanks again I am glad that there are people here that understand. Jean
Hi Jean,
I'm glad to see that you said you are starting to think positive and that when your heart races that it doesn't last as long, only 2-3 minutes. It has only been a week since you've started trying to think more positive. PLEASE
Hi Jean,
I'm glad to see that you said you are starting to think positive and that when your heart races that it doesn't last as long, only 2-3 minutes. It has only been a week since you've started trying to think more positive. PLEASE
Dear MLS,
Thanks for the encouragement...(I need it):) I keep trying to remind myself that it can not be a deadly arrythmia like I was so afraid that is was because it wouldnt pass in a few minutes like it always does. I still have a hard time believing 100% that it is not a true heart problem but wouldnt you think that something else would happen by now? There is still that little doubt that prevents me from being calm. When you used to have the attacks did you ever find yourself always focused on your heart? Also I get hot first and then after my heart calms down I get cold and I read this is typical with anxiety does it sound like it could be anything worse to you? My problem was I read about all of these arrythmias that sounded like what I was going through and then I scared myself even more.
Have a great day and I look forward to hearing from you again. Jean