I'm going to be a bit mean (I'm sorry..) but your problem is not your palpitations, it's your anxiety. Anxiety is treatable even though your palpitations possible are not.
You do have some palpitations, but the number is not extremely high. There are many of us (also on this board) who have a far higher number and still live a normal life. My mom has on occations 5-10k PVCs daily. She went to a cardiologist, was told they are benign, accepted that and went on with her life. I envy that. Why did it happen? Because she doesn't suffer any anxiety disorder.
I have (I quote my Holter report) "a very low number of narrow complex ectopics (PACs)" and on occation they still freak me out. I'm beginning to understand that it's the anxiety which is the problem. You need to treat the root, not the symptoms.
What you need to do (I know it's not that easy) is to "detach" from your heart. Let it beat how it wants to. You can't do anything to control your heart (it controls itself) so trying to do so is meaningless. You already know that palpitations can't kill you (there is really no way they can). You seem obsessed about your heart and how it beats. Why? Do you think you can prevent your heart from stopping by controlling it? In the extremely unlikely case your heart stops, you are dead anyway, and you can't do anything about it even if you monitor your heart (oh crap, there it stopped, what am I supposed to do now?)
You can't control everything. You can't prevent an aircraft from crashing by monitoring turbulence and engine sounds, and you can't prevent your heart from stopping by monitoring it.
You say that you would rather die than living with your palpitations. I can understand that, but it is an irrational statement which more or less proves that your anxiety is the problem. If your problem would be fear of death in itself, you wouldn't. Your problem is that your anxiety symptoms (rather than palpitations) are so intense that you can't live with them.
There are lots of treatment options for anxiety. Medications might help. But more important, you need to detach from your heart and to let it beat just how it wants to. Your heart is no more interesting to control than your liver.
Well said, my anxiety is minor but I take your pragmatism to "heart" - great advice. My afib goes mostly unnoticed, lucky part of bad luck in my case.
Thanks guys. The problem is that I've been on Xanax and it did help a lot but only when I'm doing nothing. So when I'm idle or sitting or resting, there is no arrhythmia but imagine that... I can't have a proper sexual life. Anytime during intercourse I get those very nasty PVCs that push me to pause and take a minute break. They then stop, and come back if I resume.
I started exercising everyday and I can run for 20 mins non stop and I feel nothing. Only when I rest, they start and wont stop for few hours.
When I said i'd rather die, I meant that my life isn't about feeling some weird beats that are annoying no. I don't mind having PACs as I find them annoying a bit but controllable. SVT is also OK for me but the PVCs are really disturbing. I feel my head is about to explode, sometimes about to faint / chest discomfort / shortness of breath that comes and ago every couple of seconds.
here's a screenshot of the ECG report :
Also what's about that one micro-aneurysms in the Right Ventricular Outflow Tract ? Doctor said it might be what's causing all my arrhythmia but can't do anything about it. He refused to say that my heart structure is completely normal but also said it's not abnormal.
Thanks again guys.
It clearly sounds like your ectopics have some adrenergic cause, if they are worsened during stress and intercourse but not during running. Beta blockers should help, but often they are given in too low dose.
If you have tried Toprol or similar beta blockers in doses of 10-50 mg/day, you haven't tried beta blockers properly. Some people, but not everyone, get an effect from a dose this low. How high was your dose?
Also, Sotacor is a possibility. It is a beta blocker with additional antiarrhythmic properties.
If your average heart rate is 91, you probably tolerate a high dose. Ask your doctor?
Doctor initially suggested Concor ( Bisoprolol ) but my Father who happens to be a surgeon ( urologist ) refused it due to many side effects and erectile dysfunction symptoms.
I'm on Nebilet ( 5mg/day ) that doctor said that it should be very effective but it's doing literally nothing.
Also my blood pressure goes up to 160/100 when I stand up to take it at the check-up room. 1 minute later it's 130/88
Sounds like you have an exaggerated adrenaline response. My doctor prescribed Metoprolol 100 mg and told me to increase the dose to a point where I had effect but not unbearable side effects. At 100-200 mg I have good effect. I've even tried as high as 300 mg.
Nebivolol is not used to treat arrhythmias.